I AM



Greetings Earthlings!

I am Beverly Kho living in North side, Manila.
My name means "Woman from the beaver meadow" which explains why I look like this.
I have once lived with Anne Frank back in the 1930's. I am allergic to powder and as a result, I have never felt non-sticky.
I have my own river named 'Emotion'. I have once felt isolated from this world and tried to fit in with the Egyptians.

If anybody has anymore questions beyond art, music, duplication, relevance, obsessions, literature,
heartbreak, disillusionment, love, death, the future, confusion, delusions, homosexuals, sleep machines,
mundanes, eco-friendly and vegetarians, please don't Google my name or ask your "friend who knows about me".
Call me at your Mom's house, I'll be there having a powder party.

Ok, enough about that. As you can see, this blog is filled with Incubus that's because
I AM a big big fan of them. I look up to them and they serve as my inspiration (Sometimes my distraction. Hi Brandon)

Besides BB and Incubus, I enjoy the sights of...
...FASHION
...ART
...MUSIC
...TRAVEL

Oh, and by the way, if your not using Mozilla Firefox, you won't be able to view my posts.

Cheers!

Lawyers


INSPIRATION
"The world is a drought when out of love
Please come back to us
You're all of the above
I'm making a choice to be out of touch
Leave me be he said, he said, he said,
Leave me here in my stark, raving, sick, sad little world!"


"We're both aligned in framed of mind but circumstance has got us good
And now you’re seeing a side of me I wished no one ever would
Yeah, if it's right to pick a fight, we’re fingers in a sugar bowl
Love isn’t perfect, even diamonds start out as coal"


"Should I apologize
If what I say burns your ears and stains your eyes?
Oh, did I crack your shell?
When it falls away, you'll see we exist as well!"


"I suggest we learn to love ourselves before it's made illegal
When will we learn? When will we change?
Just in time to see it all come down..."


"Was it something I said
Something I read and manifested that's getting you down
Don't you dare come to bed with that ambiguous look in your eye
I'd sooner sleep by an open fire and wake up fried"


"There's something about the look in your eyes
Something I noticed when the light was just right
It reminded me twice that I was alive
And it reminded me that you're so worth the fight"


"Could there be a familiar ring every time I sing about.
Cycle the tears everything in life no doubt I, I.
Reiterate till my jaw is offset,
But I'll say it again anyway,
What you give is what you get!"


"I take a look around; it´s evident the scene has changed.
And there are times when I feel improved, improved upon the past.
Then there are times when I can´t seem to understand at all
and yes it seems as though I´m goin nowhere...
really fucking fast, nowhere fast."


"I'm thinking of my soul severity
And I know everything you hate in me
Fill me up with over-pious badgerate
Throw them up; one of my favorite things"


"I hear you on the radio
You permeate my screen, its' unkind but
If I met you in a scissor fight
I'd cut off both your wings on principle alone"


"Hello!? I'm trying to focus
But my eyes deceive me.
Focus. I'm witnessing history...repeating."


"Picture the scene, where whatever you thought,
would, in the blink of an eye, manifest and become illustrated.
You'd be sure man that every line drawn reflected a life that you loved
not an existence that you hated.
So, must we demonstrate that we can't get it straight?
We've painted a picture, now we're drowning in the paint.
Let's figure out what the fuck it's about,
before the picture we painted chews us up and spits us out."


"There'd be no one to answer to
and complicate our lives,
we could be
the epitome of self sufficience."


"It isn't fair to mention, but it awes the crowd
Your fictional, plastic alibi
So take another hit, steal another line
Did you ever meet a leech who was good at goodbyes?"


"In my fantasy, I’m a Pantomime
I'll just move my hands and everyone sees what I mean
Words are too messy, and it’s way past time
To end in my mouth paint my face white and tried
To reinvent the sea, one wave a time
Speak without my voice and see the world by candlelight"


"I saw you standing in my headlights
I thought I’d run you down for the weight you left on me
Instead I punched rewind, reversed and drove away
And seeing you disappear in my rear view
brought to me the word 'reciprocity'"


"You stare at me like I'm a vitamin.
On the surface you hate,
but you know you need me.
I come dressed as any pill you deem fit.
Whatever helps you swallow the truth
all the more easily"


"My secret arsenal
is an infinite, ageless inkwell
it's a fountian of youth
and a patriot's weapon of choice."


"Enough bowing down to disillusion
Hats off and applause to rogues and evolution
The ripple effect is too good not to mention
If you're not affected, you’re not paying attention
It's too good, it's too good, not to have an effect"


"I see you in line, dragging your feet
you have my sympathy.
The day you were born, you were born free.
That is your privilege."


"Mend this careless thread, it's gone askew
(Thread on my sweater is pendulous, step back and pull it
Watch it unravel faster than a speeding bullet)"


"I'm at the end of my report again
For those who won't do apathy
You had the perfect opportunity
But plead the fifth and walked away"


"What if I was just dreaming? What if I lived in a pear?
What if I had a mustard drenched cucumber tied to my leg."


"Disconnect and let me drift until my upside down is right side in
Society must let the artist go to wander off into the nebula"


"Two weeks without my lover,
I'm in this boat alone
Floating down a river named Emotion
Will I make it back to shore or drift into the unknown."


"If this is right, I'd rather be wrong.
If this is sight, I'd rather be blind."


"Out of line, and indivisible
A crow left of the murder
Every piece contains a map of it all"


"You came, you saw, you conquered...everyone
And I'm left here guessing
Oh what went wrong"


"Kiss the sand goodbye because
the tide is coming up and in
yeah, water, water, water everywhere
and every chance to sink!"


"High fives to a better judgment
By saying less today, I will gain more
Low twos to you my fickle friend
Who brought the art of silent war"


"Some people fall in love and touch the sky
Some people fall in love and find quicksand
I hover somewhere in between
I swear…
I can’t make up my mind."


"Wake up everyone
How can you sleep at a time like this
Unless the dreamer is the real you
Listen to your voice
The one that tells you to taste past the tip of your tongue
Leap and the net will appear."


"I dream
that someday we'll be able to look back
on this together and say
It was for the best and that it
made us stronger today."


"All of my life
Where have you been
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
And if that day comes
I know we could win
I wonder if I'll ever see you again."


"He said Hey Sister.
It’s really really nice to meet ya.
I just met this 5 foot 7 guy who’s just my type.
I like the way he’s speaking his confidence is peaking.
Don’t like his baggy jeans but Imma like what’s underneath it.
And no I aint been to MIA
I heard that Cali never rains and New York heart awaits.
First let’s see the west end.
I’ll show you to my bridrens.
I’m likin' this American Boy. American Boy."


"You better think fast, think fast
'Cause you never know what's coming round the bend.
You better not blink, or breathe.
For consequence is a bigger word than you think."


"Put down your hollow tips
And kiss your lover's lips
And know that fate is what you make of it."


"'Cause' what I want
and what I need
is and will always be free."





LEAVE ME

TALK TO ME






LOOK BACK

I CAN SEE YOU

Monday, November 26, 2007 ' 9:37 PM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

in my fantasy, I'm a Pantomime

Thank you Lou! I owe you!
While copying notes in class Lou showed me this article in the entertainment section, It says, "...we will all have to get ready for a truly rocking 2008. This early in the day, rumors have it that we will have INCUBUS♥, Maroon 5 and cross your hearts and hope also, My Chemical Romance..." blah blah. Parang ako, whaaaat! let's just hope! Di tuloy ako naka-concentrate, may pinapa-memorize pa naman samin. I memorized it naman :) who cares for My Chemical?? basta Incubus! can't wait. I'll beg my lungs out till I die basta lang payagan ako. Magwawala talaga ako! haha. Shempre over-reacting ako eh rumors pa nga lang. haha. I desperately wanna see Boyd's hot bod! (desperately!) I missed the chance last March 2004, Now it's time! hehehe. I just so wish that if ever they are gonna have a concert here, it's in Bonifacio Global City para super lapit lang and i have about 85% chance. haha

So, anyways, I made an 'artwork' album in multiply. Na-inspired ako. haha.
CLICK ME!


*Happy Bday Efren pala!

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Saturday, November 24, 2007 ' 7:38 PM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

this Quirk in evolution will begin


It was our (me and my sister) first time to join a game show on TV. It was actually fun, and I think I wanna do it again. hahahaha. So we arrived at the Broadway studio of Gma. I saw a lot of familiar faces from TV...
Me, together with the other contestants just waited for our cue. We were waiting at the dressing room. Other contestants were, Brian Revilla, Wyn Wyn and Yeoj Marquez, Job Zamora, Lex Roco, Cassie Mendez, Moira and Yna Estrada, Sachi Serna, Yna Montenegro. I forgot the names of the others...
So the game started. We have to choose any number and if the number that we chose is the 'lucky number' the hosts will first interview you about random stuff then they'll ask you the question. My sister was chosen dun sa Lucky 7, meaning the number that she stepped on was chosen. All the numbers that I stepped on was not chosen at all. hahaha!
Ang bait ni Francis M, habang commercial and we were just standing there, He told us that pag di namin alam yung sagot, tingnan lang daw namin siya. hahahaha..pati si Julia, she was coaching the answers on the contestant's ears. She's so nice, she even gave us (me and my sister) some advice before the show started. The winner was Moira Estrada..Lucky.
Paolo Ballesteros is so cute, too bad he was gay =( hahaha! He was dancing like some kind of a gypsy dance while commercials. haha! Lougee was so beautiful and she wasn't fat at all.
Even if we lost, we still have a talent fee of 5k. So while waiting for our tf, Lex Roco was 10 inches away from me. hahaha! di ko alam na gwapo pala siya..hehehe.
It was a fun experience and i wanna do it again. hehe. wag lang sa Wowowee kasi papasayawin ka dun. haha! kahiya.

Alot of friends texted me back kasi i texted them to watch me.
Mike, sorry di kita na greet! hahaha!

Btw, on the way home sa car, I saw Dennis Trillo♥ my only local celeb crush. hehe

Ciao Earthlings!

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Friday, November 23, 2007 ' 9:53 PM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

tonight there'll be a Ruckus.

I got my report card a while ago, I was a bit shocked coz I expected more than I got and I know that I've been doing good in school that quarter, exams are not high though, but I didn't miss any works..maybe two or three, but that's it. Well, one thing's for sure. I ain't taking no summer classes! haha!

So, on the way home, Mom got a phone call..I just overheard her saying "Ah! my daughter Beverly!" So I asked. Guess what? She got me into this game show in Gma called 'On The Spot'. She said that their motif was 'sons / daughters of celebrities from the 60's'. Something like that. I'm kinda excited and I don't know why I don't feel nervous at all.
So friends, watch me! Watch me and my sucky-ness. hahaha!

I don't know if I can make it to Pat's party. I'll try, I'll try. Hopefully I could come.

Some random thoughts running through my head...
-Beware of the empanadas sold on Aggy's bake shop. You don't wanna know why.
-I think it's fun being a Kawaii girl :))
-Pano ba kasi mag lagay ng podcast? hahahahaha
-Nov 28. 4 more days!
-Will black make me look slim on tv?

Ciao Earthlings!

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Wednesday, November 21, 2007 ' 7:51 PM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

teasers from the 'Look Alive' DVD of Incubus♥

Trailer


Anna Molly


Sick, Sad, Little World





The release date is on Nov. 27, Hopefully I could get a copy.
So I could watch its awesomeness each and every day. hahaha

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' 5:09 PM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

This is just Lovely.

Incubus and Jay-Z?





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Sunday, November 18, 2007 ' 1:22 PM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

the path I walk is in the Wrong Direction

I changed my blog address to Hailthejewelofthelotus, This came from the tatoo Boyd bears on his right forearm that is a Tibetan word "Om Mani Padme Hum." which translates to "Hail the Jewel of the Lotus" and means, "The Sound That Strengthens Compassion in All Enlightened Beings."
Silly me, I didn't knew that if you delete your blog, even if you save the templates, old posts will be deleted as well. But it's ok, I didn't want to read those posts anyways, It will just remind me of the past that I regret doing.

Btw, my dad gave me a new phone, It's an N95. I told him I didn't want it. (coz what I wanted was a T-mobile Sidekick. haha) but he insisted and told me that he'll give my old one to her secretary. so yun.



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Saturday, November 17, 2007 ' 5:30 PM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

ANTICIPATION has the habit to set you up

I wanna go badly!
I really wanna go to their gig on the 28th,
But the problem is the place is parang,
"Pumunta na ko kahit saan wag lang dun."
My mom hates that place. So, I dunno how..
Oh well, Hopefully they'll have other gigs in OTHER
places. tsk.
But I'll try, even if I know that there is about 90%
that my mom won't allow me.
I really wanna check out his new band♥

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Wednesday, November 14, 2007 ' 3:30 PM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

learn to ACCEPT.

Ok so this is what happened to me in the last two months:

September
Still fresh from chaos, Healing process was still on going
Cheering practices from mon-sat, Hectic and disastrous. haha.
We miss hanging out with Ruth at school =(
My sister's birthday on the 12th, Had a celebration on the 15th
here in Mckinley.
Still not going out.

October
My 15th birthday on the 1st.
Ana's on the 2nd.
Welcoming of our exchange students Kai and Fon from Thailand.
Super duper hectic cheering practices! yikes!
Had a joint birthday party with Baron on the 5th here at Mckinley.
INTRAMURALS 07!
Recollection ->So not fun for me.
2nd Quarter long test and exam week! yikes!
Batch party before sembreak! too bad I wasn't able to come...
SEMBREAK!
Hong Kong! shop.eat.walk.sleep. hahaha!
Still not going out.

And this is what's been happening to me lately:

November
Just got back from Hong Kong, Gained some pounds. tsk.
Oh, and school's back too. grr.
Busy busy busy once again.
Beyonce? Akon? who's next? hahaha!
A get together at Ruth's place, I was all dressed up and ready to go
but wait! daddy stopped me and told me that it was too late for me to go
out (currently 6pm). I had to cry and all that shit. Lame.
oh, and guess what? I'm still not going out.

What I mean of me-still-not-going-ot is...I mean, I go out with my family every Saturdays
or Sundays but when It's time for me to go out and have fun with my friends, Chaos strikes once again. And hello?! the last time I went out was on the 1st
week of August!

Btw, I found that "sources" that I've been looking for a gazillion years..hehe
Go figure.
Clue? No no no, She doesn't Hate Ballet. hahaha!

If you think that the only thing that happens to me now is Depression and all that, your'e wrong. Everything's going back to the way it used to be. And I'm happy.

Oh yeah! forgot to tell, I saw Grunge this August, ok, I know I know.
the code name's lame and matagal na but I just have to tell this.
So, We stopped our car in front of this silver honda (I think?) sa may parking
ng Bf Club then there was this guy in the driver's seat but he was looking down
so the only thing I saw was his hair, his hair looked familiar.
The only thing running through my mind was "Please tell me this is him
Please tell me this is him." yah, guess what? It's him! and his face was parang,
"Sino nga ulit tong babaeng to?" coz he was looking at me too. I couldn't scream coz my mom was there. haha! I have a huuuge feeling that we lives in the village right in front of ours. Hopefully my prediction is right. haha!

Ciao Earthlings!

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