I AM



Greetings Earthlings!

I am Beverly Kho living in North side, Manila.
My name means "Woman from the beaver meadow" which explains why I look like this.
I have once lived with Anne Frank back in the 1930's. I am allergic to powder and as a result, I have never felt non-sticky.
I have my own river named 'Emotion'. I have once felt isolated from this world and tried to fit in with the Egyptians.

If anybody has anymore questions beyond art, music, duplication, relevance, obsessions, literature,
heartbreak, disillusionment, love, death, the future, confusion, delusions, homosexuals, sleep machines,
mundanes, eco-friendly and vegetarians, please don't Google my name or ask your "friend who knows about me".
Call me at your Mom's house, I'll be there having a powder party.

Ok, enough about that. As you can see, this blog is filled with Incubus that's because
I AM a big big fan of them. I look up to them and they serve as my inspiration (Sometimes my distraction. Hi Brandon)

Besides BB and Incubus, I enjoy the sights of...
...FASHION
...ART
...MUSIC
...TRAVEL

Oh, and by the way, if your not using Mozilla Firefox, you won't be able to view my posts.

Cheers!

Lawyers


INSPIRATION
"The world is a drought when out of love
Please come back to us
You're all of the above
I'm making a choice to be out of touch
Leave me be he said, he said, he said,
Leave me here in my stark, raving, sick, sad little world!"


"We're both aligned in framed of mind but circumstance has got us good
And now you’re seeing a side of me I wished no one ever would
Yeah, if it's right to pick a fight, we’re fingers in a sugar bowl
Love isn’t perfect, even diamonds start out as coal"


"Should I apologize
If what I say burns your ears and stains your eyes?
Oh, did I crack your shell?
When it falls away, you'll see we exist as well!"


"I suggest we learn to love ourselves before it's made illegal
When will we learn? When will we change?
Just in time to see it all come down..."


"Was it something I said
Something I read and manifested that's getting you down
Don't you dare come to bed with that ambiguous look in your eye
I'd sooner sleep by an open fire and wake up fried"


"There's something about the look in your eyes
Something I noticed when the light was just right
It reminded me twice that I was alive
And it reminded me that you're so worth the fight"


"Could there be a familiar ring every time I sing about.
Cycle the tears everything in life no doubt I, I.
Reiterate till my jaw is offset,
But I'll say it again anyway,
What you give is what you get!"


"I take a look around; it´s evident the scene has changed.
And there are times when I feel improved, improved upon the past.
Then there are times when I can´t seem to understand at all
and yes it seems as though I´m goin nowhere...
really fucking fast, nowhere fast."


"I'm thinking of my soul severity
And I know everything you hate in me
Fill me up with over-pious badgerate
Throw them up; one of my favorite things"


"I hear you on the radio
You permeate my screen, its' unkind but
If I met you in a scissor fight
I'd cut off both your wings on principle alone"


"Hello!? I'm trying to focus
But my eyes deceive me.
Focus. I'm witnessing history...repeating."


"Picture the scene, where whatever you thought,
would, in the blink of an eye, manifest and become illustrated.
You'd be sure man that every line drawn reflected a life that you loved
not an existence that you hated.
So, must we demonstrate that we can't get it straight?
We've painted a picture, now we're drowning in the paint.
Let's figure out what the fuck it's about,
before the picture we painted chews us up and spits us out."


"There'd be no one to answer to
and complicate our lives,
we could be
the epitome of self sufficience."


"It isn't fair to mention, but it awes the crowd
Your fictional, plastic alibi
So take another hit, steal another line
Did you ever meet a leech who was good at goodbyes?"


"In my fantasy, I’m a Pantomime
I'll just move my hands and everyone sees what I mean
Words are too messy, and it’s way past time
To end in my mouth paint my face white and tried
To reinvent the sea, one wave a time
Speak without my voice and see the world by candlelight"


"I saw you standing in my headlights
I thought I’d run you down for the weight you left on me
Instead I punched rewind, reversed and drove away
And seeing you disappear in my rear view
brought to me the word 'reciprocity'"


"You stare at me like I'm a vitamin.
On the surface you hate,
but you know you need me.
I come dressed as any pill you deem fit.
Whatever helps you swallow the truth
all the more easily"


"My secret arsenal
is an infinite, ageless inkwell
it's a fountian of youth
and a patriot's weapon of choice."


"Enough bowing down to disillusion
Hats off and applause to rogues and evolution
The ripple effect is too good not to mention
If you're not affected, you’re not paying attention
It's too good, it's too good, not to have an effect"


"I see you in line, dragging your feet
you have my sympathy.
The day you were born, you were born free.
That is your privilege."


"Mend this careless thread, it's gone askew
(Thread on my sweater is pendulous, step back and pull it
Watch it unravel faster than a speeding bullet)"


"I'm at the end of my report again
For those who won't do apathy
You had the perfect opportunity
But plead the fifth and walked away"


"What if I was just dreaming? What if I lived in a pear?
What if I had a mustard drenched cucumber tied to my leg."


"Disconnect and let me drift until my upside down is right side in
Society must let the artist go to wander off into the nebula"


"Two weeks without my lover,
I'm in this boat alone
Floating down a river named Emotion
Will I make it back to shore or drift into the unknown."


"If this is right, I'd rather be wrong.
If this is sight, I'd rather be blind."


"Out of line, and indivisible
A crow left of the murder
Every piece contains a map of it all"


"You came, you saw, you conquered...everyone
And I'm left here guessing
Oh what went wrong"


"Kiss the sand goodbye because
the tide is coming up and in
yeah, water, water, water everywhere
and every chance to sink!"


"High fives to a better judgment
By saying less today, I will gain more
Low twos to you my fickle friend
Who brought the art of silent war"


"Some people fall in love and touch the sky
Some people fall in love and find quicksand
I hover somewhere in between
I swear…
I can’t make up my mind."


"Wake up everyone
How can you sleep at a time like this
Unless the dreamer is the real you
Listen to your voice
The one that tells you to taste past the tip of your tongue
Leap and the net will appear."


"I dream
that someday we'll be able to look back
on this together and say
It was for the best and that it
made us stronger today."


"All of my life
Where have you been
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
And if that day comes
I know we could win
I wonder if I'll ever see you again."


"He said Hey Sister.
It’s really really nice to meet ya.
I just met this 5 foot 7 guy who’s just my type.
I like the way he’s speaking his confidence is peaking.
Don’t like his baggy jeans but Imma like what’s underneath it.
And no I aint been to MIA
I heard that Cali never rains and New York heart awaits.
First let’s see the west end.
I’ll show you to my bridrens.
I’m likin' this American Boy. American Boy."


"You better think fast, think fast
'Cause you never know what's coming round the bend.
You better not blink, or breathe.
For consequence is a bigger word than you think."


"Put down your hollow tips
And kiss your lover's lips
And know that fate is what you make of it."


"'Cause' what I want
and what I need
is and will always be free."





LEAVE ME

TALK TO ME






LOOK BACK

I CAN SEE YOU

Thursday, December 27, 2007 ' 7:48 AM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

Dahil na discover ko ang web dito sa phone ko...

Bear with me and my nonsense stories. Were checked in here at Park Lane hotel again. Dapat sa YFC hotel kami but it was fully booked. So last night, we ate at Delicious Kitchen (where we often eat when we go to Hk), alot of people were waiting in line. But we still got to eat though coz we were early. Ganun ka sarap dun at pinipilahan. Haha. We went to Fahion Walk, and bought some super cute stuff from 55DSL Me and mom went shopping. Asusual she bought ALOT. Kami na nga nagsara ng place na yun eh. Haha. Btw, can I just tell this? Why is it that eeeverywhere I look there's a cute guy? Hm? Hahaha.

P.S. I forgot to save my post which I did last night so I did it all over again. Tsk.

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Wednesday, December 26, 2007 ' 9:30 AM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

Mabuhay ang Mabuhay Lounge.

Currently at the Mabuhay Lounge in the airport. Im using my phone to surf. Haha. Ang saya pala mag surf using phone. Hehe. On my way to Hk, flight is on 12nn pa. So, yah. 2 hours and 30 mins more. Ok. Be back later. Hehe.

P.S. Our flight was suppose to be at 8-10 am. I forgot. but it was delayed so our flight is now on 12nn. My dad, asusual, got pissed and he told the guy from the immigration that he is a friend of Lucio Tan (owner of PAL). Two employees approached my Dad and gave him P20,000 and free tickets for 6 to China (I guess, I forgot the country). They gave that to us just for the 4-hour wait that we had. hahaha.

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Saturday, December 22, 2007 ' 11:19 AM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

Better be safe than sorry.
From Ruth's multiply

REPOSTED FROM:

http://issaytanabe.multiply.com/journal/item/28/
Jim_Paredes_wrote_Katipunan_QC_incident_

Forrwarded by Jim Paredes of Ateneo69.
>
> Jim Paredes wrote: Katipunan , QC incident
>
> Dear friends,
>
> Many of you may not have heard of the incident that
> happened to a friend of my son last week at about
> 6:30 pm right in front of the thickly-populated area
> of BPI-Katipunan, near shoppersville. she parked her
> car right in front of BPI to make a withdrawal and
> to do some groceries.
>
> As she was getting into her car after doing her
> chores, a man suddenly appeared beside her and tried
> to bully her into moving to the passenger seat. when
> she pressed her car horn to call attention, he
> pushed her in the car and pinned her down with his
> elbow on her neck. it was a good thing that she had
> the presence of mind to continue to struggle and
> press on her car horn to catch attention(even if she
> had to use her foot to do this) Her assailant even
> tried to make people believe that it was a domestic
> matter by telling the crowd not to get involved as
> it was a "private matter". But with the onlookers
> multiplying by the second, her assailant finally
> gave up and ran. that was when she stood up and
> shouted for help. Thank God the guy got caught and
> is now under police custody.
>
> Last saturday, during the inquest, she told me that
> what gave her the guts to fight her assailant was
> the article "THROUGH A RAPIST'S EYES" forwarded to
> our e-groups! about a week prior to her attack. I am
> re-forwarding the article (you can find it at the
> bottom of this (e-mail) for everyone's benefit.
> please tell your friends, family, and loved ones
> about this. It works. may i just add that to a
> certain extent, we have to get ourselves involved if
> we see violence being committed on anyone like
> calling on a security guard or a police officer even
> if it appears to be a domestic matter. It seems that
> a lot of attackers use that tactic to get away with
> violence. Not many people know how to take care of
> themselves when faced with such a situation.
> Everyone, please be very, very careful.
>
> THOUGHT THIS WAS GOOD INFO TO PASS ALONG...
>
> FYI - Through a rapist's eyes! A group of rapists
> and date rapists in prison were interviewed on what
> they look for in a potential victim and here are
> some interesting facts:
>
> 1] The first thing men look for in a potential
> victim is hairstyle. They are most likely to go
> after a woman with a ponytail, bun! , braid or other
> hairstyle that can easily be grabbed. They are also
> likely to go after a woman with long hair. Women
> with short hair are not common targets.
>
> 2] The second thing men look for is clothing. They
> will look for women who's clothing is easy to remove
> quickly. Many of them carry scissors around to cut
> clothing.
>
> 3] They also look for women using their cell phone,
> searching through their purse or doing other
> activities while walking because they are off guard
> and can be easily overpowered.
>
> 4] The number one place women are abducted from /
> attacked at is grocery store parking lots.
>
> 5] Number two is office parking lots/garages.
>
> 6] Number three is public restrooms.
>
> 7] The thing about these men is that they are
> looking to grab a woman and quickly move her to a
> second location where they don't have to worry about
> getting caught.
>
> 8] If you put up any kind of a fight at all, they
> get discouraged because it only takes a minute or
> two for! them to realize that going after you isn't
> worth it because it will be time-consuming.
>
> 9] These men said they would not pick on women who
> have umbrellas,or other similar objects that can be
> used from a distance, in their hands.
>
> 10] Keys are not a deterrent because you have to get
> really close to the attacker to use them as a
> weapon. So, the idea is to convince these guys
> you're not worth it.
>
> POINTS THAT WE SHOULD REMEMBER:=20
>
> 1] If someone is following behind you on a street or
> in a garage or with you in an elevator or stairwell,
> look them in the face and ask them a question, like
> what time is it, or make general small talk: can't
> believe it is so cold out here, we're in for a bad
> winter. Now that you've seen their faces and could
> identify them in a line- up, you lose appeal as a
> target.
>
> 2] If someone is coming toward you, hold out your
> hands in front of you and yell Stop or Stay back!
> Most of the rapists this man talked to said they'd
> leave a woman alone if she yelled or showed that she
> would not be afraid to fight back. Again, they are
> looking for an EASY target.
>
> 3] If you carry pepper spray (this instructor was a
> huge advocate of it and carries it with him wherever
> he goes,) yelling I HAVE PEPPER SPRAY and holding it
> out will be a deterrent.
>
> 4] If someone grabs you, you can't beat them with
> strength but you can do it by outsmarting them. If
> you are grabbed around the waist from behind, pinch
> the attacker either under the arm between the elbow
> and armpit or in the upper inner thigh - HARD. One
> woman in a class this guy taught told him she used
> the underarm pinch on a guy who was trying to date
> rape her and was so upset she broke through the skin
> and tore out muscle strands the guy needed stitches.
> Try pinching yourself in those places as hard as you
> can stand it; it really hurts.
>
> 5] After the initial hit, always go for the groin. I
> know from a particularly unfortunate experience that
> if you slap a guy's parts it is extremely painful.
> You might think that you'll anger the guy and make
> him want to hurt you more, but the thing these
> rapists told our instructor is that they want a
> woman who will not cause him a lot of trouble. Start
> causing trouble, and he's out of there.
>
> 6] When the guy puts his hands up to you, grab his
> first two fingers and bend them back as far as
> possible with as much pressure pushing down on them
> as possible. The instructor did it to me without
> using much pressure, and I ended up on my knees and
> both knuckles cracked audibly.
>
> 7] Of course the things we always hear still apply.
> Always be aware of your surroundings, take someone
> with you if you can and if you see any odd behavior,
> don't dismiss it, go with your instincts. You may
> feel little silly at the time, but you'd feel much
> worse if the guy really was trouble.
>
> FINALLY, PLEASE REMEMBER THESE AS WELL ....
>
> I know you are smart enough to know these pointers
> but there will be some, where you will go "hmm I
> must remember that" After reading, forward it to
> someone you care about, never hurts to be careful in
> this crazy world we live in.
>
> 1. Tip from Tae Kwon Do: The elbow is the strongest
> point on your body. If you are close enough to use
> it, do it.
>
> 2. Learned this from a tourist guide to New Orleans
> : if a robber asks for your wallet and/or purse, DO
> NOT HAND IT TO HIM. Toss it away from you....
> chances are that he is more interested in your
> wallet and/or purse than you and he will go for the
> wallet/purse. RUN LIKE MAD IN THE OTHER DIRECTION!
>
> 3. If you are ever thrown into the trunk of a car:
> Kick out the back tail lights and stick your arm out
> the hole and start waving like crazy. The driver
> won't see you but everybody else will. This has
> saved lives.
>
> 4. Women have a tendency to get into their cars
> after shopping,eating, working, etc., and just sit
> (doing their checkbook, or making a list, etc. DON'T
> DO THIS! The predator will be watching you, and this
> is the perfect opportunity for him to get in on the
> passenger side,put a gun to your head, and tell you
> where to go. AS SOON AS YOU CLOSE the DOORS , LEAVE.
>
>
> 5. A few notes about getting into your car in a
> parking lot, or parking garage: a. Be aware: look
> around your car as someone may be hiding at the
> passenger side , peek into your car, inside the
> passenger side floor, and in the back seat. ( DO
> THIS TOO BEFORE RIDING A TAXI CAB) .
>
> b. If you! u are parked next to a big van, enter
> your car from the passenger door. Most serial
> killers attack their victims by pulling them into
> their vans while the women are attempting to get
> into their cars.
>
> c. Look at the car parked on the driver's side of
> your vehicle, and the passenger side. If a male is
> sitting alone in the seat nearest your car, you may
> want to walk back into the mall, or work, and get a
> guard/policeman to walk you back out. IT IS ALWAYS
> BETTER TO BE SAFE THAN SORRY. (And better paranoid
> than dead.)
>
> 6. ALWAYS take the elevator instead of the stairs.
> (Stairwells are horrible places to be alone and the
> perfect crime spot).
>
> 7. If the predator has a gun and you are not under
> his control, ALWAYS RUN! The predator will only hit
> you (a running target) 4 in 100 times; And even
> then, it most likely WILL NOT be a vital organ. RUN!
>
>
> 8. As women, we are always trying to be sympathetic:
> STOP IT! It may get you raped, or killed. Ted Bundy,
> the serial killer, was a good-looking, well educated
> man, who ALWAYS played on the sympathies of
> unsuspecting women. He walked with a cane, or a
> limp, and often asked "for help" into his vehicle or
> with his vehicle, which is when he abducted his next
> victim.
>
> I'd like you to forward this to all the women you
> know. It may save a life. A candle is not dimmed by
> lighting another candle. I was going to send this to
> the ladies only, but guys, if you love your mothers,
> wives, sisters, daughters, etc., you may want to
> pass it onto them, as well.
>
> Send this to any woman you know that may need to be
> reminded that the world we live in has a lot of
> crazies in it and it's better safe than sorry.
> Best regards,



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Monday, December 10, 2007 ' 8:22 PM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

I have dreamed of this, and now it's real.


INCUBUS HERE IN MANILA ON MARCH 9, ARANETA COLISEUM!!

I knew it! I knew it!
Ok, breath breath...
Thanks Benjamin! I owe you! I'm speechless. I've been waiting for this since 2004! I have dreamed of this, and now it's real. I can't wait to see you Brandon!
Ok, so I know that Araneta isn't the bestest and safest place, but who cares? It's Incubus! Ok, I sound like a dork. haha.
Too bad wala pang binebenta na tickets. Seriously, pag meron na, I would call right here, right now, and reserve the very very front seat tickets!
I hope they play songs from 'S.C.I.E.N.C.E.' and 'A Crow Left Of The Murder'♥
Ano kaya maganda ibigay kay Brandon? I think I'll just make him a shirt that will remind him of me. But there's like a 20% chance that I'll be able to give it to him =(
I can't believe this is happening. Anyone, pinch me? hahahahaha.
As early as now, magpapalam na ko, coz I remember my parents saying way back that Araneta is not a safe place, lot of snatchers, blah blah. So I might have a hard time begging =p

Woops, much of my excitement, I forgot to do my Chem homework. dang.

..."it's time we met and made a mess..."

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Saturday, December 8, 2007 ' 8:47 PM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

FLOW.♥


someday...

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