Greetings Earthlings!

I am Beverly Kho living in North side, Manila.
My name means "Woman from the beaver meadow" which explains why I look like this.
I have once lived with Anne Frank back in the 1930's. I am allergic to powder and as a result, I have never felt non-sticky.
I have my own river named 'Emotion'. I have once felt isolated from this world and tried to fit in with the Egyptians.

If anybody has anymore questions beyond art, music, duplication, relevance, obsessions, literature,
heartbreak, disillusionment, love, death, the future, confusion, delusions, homosexuals, sleep machines,
mundanes, eco-friendly and vegetarians, please don't Google my name or ask your "friend who knows about me".
Call me at your Mom's house, I'll be there having a powder party.

Ok, enough about that. As you can see, this blog is filled with Incubus that's because
I AM a big big fan of them. I look up to them and they serve as my inspiration (Sometimes my distraction. Hi Brandon)

Besides BB and Incubus, I enjoy the sights of...

Oh, and by the way, if your not using Mozilla Firefox, you won't be able to view my posts.



"The world is a drought when out of love
Please come back to us
You're all of the above
I'm making a choice to be out of touch
Leave me be he said, he said, he said,
Leave me here in my stark, raving, sick, sad little world!"

"We're both aligned in framed of mind but circumstance has got us good
And now you’re seeing a side of me I wished no one ever would
Yeah, if it's right to pick a fight, we’re fingers in a sugar bowl
Love isn’t perfect, even diamonds start out as coal"

"Should I apologize
If what I say burns your ears and stains your eyes?
Oh, did I crack your shell?
When it falls away, you'll see we exist as well!"

"I suggest we learn to love ourselves before it's made illegal
When will we learn? When will we change?
Just in time to see it all come down..."

"Was it something I said
Something I read and manifested that's getting you down
Don't you dare come to bed with that ambiguous look in your eye
I'd sooner sleep by an open fire and wake up fried"

"There's something about the look in your eyes
Something I noticed when the light was just right
It reminded me twice that I was alive
And it reminded me that you're so worth the fight"

"Could there be a familiar ring every time I sing about.
Cycle the tears everything in life no doubt I, I.
Reiterate till my jaw is offset,
But I'll say it again anyway,
What you give is what you get!"

"I take a look around; it´s evident the scene has changed.
And there are times when I feel improved, improved upon the past.
Then there are times when I can´t seem to understand at all
and yes it seems as though I´m goin nowhere...
really fucking fast, nowhere fast."

"I'm thinking of my soul severity
And I know everything you hate in me
Fill me up with over-pious badgerate
Throw them up; one of my favorite things"

"I hear you on the radio
You permeate my screen, its' unkind but
If I met you in a scissor fight
I'd cut off both your wings on principle alone"

"Hello!? I'm trying to focus
But my eyes deceive me.
Focus. I'm witnessing history...repeating."

"Picture the scene, where whatever you thought,
would, in the blink of an eye, manifest and become illustrated.
You'd be sure man that every line drawn reflected a life that you loved
not an existence that you hated.
So, must we demonstrate that we can't get it straight?
We've painted a picture, now we're drowning in the paint.
Let's figure out what the fuck it's about,
before the picture we painted chews us up and spits us out."

"There'd be no one to answer to
and complicate our lives,
we could be
the epitome of self sufficience."

"It isn't fair to mention, but it awes the crowd
Your fictional, plastic alibi
So take another hit, steal another line
Did you ever meet a leech who was good at goodbyes?"

"In my fantasy, I’m a Pantomime
I'll just move my hands and everyone sees what I mean
Words are too messy, and it’s way past time
To end in my mouth paint my face white and tried
To reinvent the sea, one wave a time
Speak without my voice and see the world by candlelight"

"I saw you standing in my headlights
I thought I’d run you down for the weight you left on me
Instead I punched rewind, reversed and drove away
And seeing you disappear in my rear view
brought to me the word 'reciprocity'"

"You stare at me like I'm a vitamin.
On the surface you hate,
but you know you need me.
I come dressed as any pill you deem fit.
Whatever helps you swallow the truth
all the more easily"

"My secret arsenal
is an infinite, ageless inkwell
it's a fountian of youth
and a patriot's weapon of choice."

"Enough bowing down to disillusion
Hats off and applause to rogues and evolution
The ripple effect is too good not to mention
If you're not affected, you’re not paying attention
It's too good, it's too good, not to have an effect"

"I see you in line, dragging your feet
you have my sympathy.
The day you were born, you were born free.
That is your privilege."

"Mend this careless thread, it's gone askew
(Thread on my sweater is pendulous, step back and pull it
Watch it unravel faster than a speeding bullet)"

"I'm at the end of my report again
For those who won't do apathy
You had the perfect opportunity
But plead the fifth and walked away"

"What if I was just dreaming? What if I lived in a pear?
What if I had a mustard drenched cucumber tied to my leg."

"Disconnect and let me drift until my upside down is right side in
Society must let the artist go to wander off into the nebula"

"Two weeks without my lover,
I'm in this boat alone
Floating down a river named Emotion
Will I make it back to shore or drift into the unknown."

"If this is right, I'd rather be wrong.
If this is sight, I'd rather be blind."

"Out of line, and indivisible
A crow left of the murder
Every piece contains a map of it all"

"You came, you saw, you conquered...everyone
And I'm left here guessing
Oh what went wrong"

"Kiss the sand goodbye because
the tide is coming up and in
yeah, water, water, water everywhere
and every chance to sink!"

"High fives to a better judgment
By saying less today, I will gain more
Low twos to you my fickle friend
Who brought the art of silent war"

"Some people fall in love and touch the sky
Some people fall in love and find quicksand
I hover somewhere in between
I swear…
I can’t make up my mind."

"Wake up everyone
How can you sleep at a time like this
Unless the dreamer is the real you
Listen to your voice
The one that tells you to taste past the tip of your tongue
Leap and the net will appear."

"I dream
that someday we'll be able to look back
on this together and say
It was for the best and that it
made us stronger today."

"All of my life
Where have you been
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
And if that day comes
I know we could win
I wonder if I'll ever see you again."

"He said Hey Sister.
It’s really really nice to meet ya.
I just met this 5 foot 7 guy who’s just my type.
I like the way he’s speaking his confidence is peaking.
Don’t like his baggy jeans but Imma like what’s underneath it.
And no I aint been to MIA
I heard that Cali never rains and New York heart awaits.
First let’s see the west end.
I’ll show you to my bridrens.
I’m likin' this American Boy. American Boy."

"You better think fast, think fast
'Cause you never know what's coming round the bend.
You better not blink, or breathe.
For consequence is a bigger word than you think."

"Put down your hollow tips
And kiss your lover's lips
And know that fate is what you make of it."

"'Cause' what I want
and what I need
is and will always be free."





Saturday, November 29, 2008 ' 7:01 PM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...


Ok, so 2 yard sales have passed. I wasn't / too lazy to attend. This time, I HAVE to go. It's not that I want to, I HAVE to.

Another reason of my desire of attending this is, again, I wanna meet my inspiration, Mara Reyes personally. She has inspired me more in pursuing my love for art and fashion. Thanks Mara!

Since I started talking about Mara Reyes, I'mma make a brief post about her.

Mara Reyes is a 21-year old from Pasig City, Metro Manila. She graduated with a Bachelor's Degree in Fine Arts Major in Painting from the University of the Philippines Diliman, she works as a costume designer.

Here are some of my personal favorites of her works:

Rose Camp Hoodie


Reversible Hooded Scarf

On Mia: Aqua Blue graphic print Corset,Gold Earphones and Stretched Metallic Gold Pants
On Mira: Black Sequined Vest, Blue Tank Top, Gold Chain Necklace, Shades and Stretched Metallic Silver Pants


Oh and isn't this picture so cute?

Found it in her MULTIPLY SITE.

You can also check out her ONLINE SHOP!

Go click and be mesmerized.

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Saturday, November 22, 2008 ' 5:41 PM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

The CB and Rihanna experience!

Okkk, I was wrong. I went completely psycho-screaming-jumping-fan-girl over Chris Brown!

I didn't knew I would react that way. As CB entered the stage, I felt the me-seeing-Boyd feeling for the second time! I've always liked CB. He was my Brandon Boyd back in the early days. I loved his songs. There's something about CB that makes me gaga, or all of us gaga.

Ok, back to the experience. I bought silver tickets which I kinda regret 'coz it was super far and I felt that we were quite isolated from the show. Yes, THAT far. But it's all good, at least I get to see CB even if it was at his ant-like view. Haha! I went with a couple of friends.
Besides seeing CB, I was excited for another thing, concert pictures! I studied and practiced concert photography just for the show and guess what? my SLR wasn't allowed inside the venue so I had to call and get somebody to take my cam for the meantime. Good thing I just live meters away from the venue.
So hello, crappy concert photos!
We are at the very first line for the silver group of audience. Don't know what I'm talking about? Click

Countdown ended. 3...2...1...then "Wall To Wall" started playing!
Like I said,
I went completely psycho-screaming-jumping-fan-girl! I didn't care even though I only knew choruses of his hit singles. Haha.

Here was his setlist: (not in order)

"Wall To Wall"
"Run It"
“Kiss, Kiss”
“Gimme That”
“Picture Perfect”
“Say Good Bye”
“With You”
“No Air” (solo version without Jordin Sparks)
“Rock With You”(Michael Jackson cover)
“Billy Jean”(Michael Jackson cover)
“Thriller”(Michael Jackson cover)

CB's entrance was rad! It was sooo cool! He was hanging upside down!

He even had a dance off part during the early hours of his show. He had kids and some teens go up the stage! How cool is that? If I was to go up on that stage, I would take the opportunity and hug him! It's not everyday that you hug a Chris Brown you know!
He was so good!

CB ended with smiles on the audiences faces. :)

After CB, there was a 30-minute break before Rihanna. There was also beautiful fireworks while waiting for Rihanna. Oh how I wish I had a guy to watch those fireworks with. Hahaha.

Rihanna finally entered the stage. She was so beautiful!

Here was her setlist: (in order)

"Breakin' Dishes"
"Break It Off" (solo version without Sean Paul)
"Let Me"
Medley —
"Pon de Replay"
"Who Am I?" (Beenie Man cover)
"Paper Planes" (M.I.A. cover)
"Doo Wop (That Thing)" (Lauryn Hill cover)
"Live Your Life" (solo version without T.I.)
"Good Girl Gone Bad"
"Hate That I Love You"
"Don't Stop the Music"
"Push Up on Me"
"Shut Up and Drive"
"Take a Bow"
"Cinderella" (with Chris Brown)

I didn't know she was more of a rocker chick now. Suits her though. I loved "Breaking Dishes"! Watching it live made me listen to that song over and over again. It was so catchy and dance-y. I kinda got bored with Rihanna.
Sorry Rihanna! All of our energy was taken by CB, no more left for Rihanna. So the crowd was all quiet when she performed. I was quite embarrased when she said, "Are you usually this quiet? Make some mother f***ing noise!"
Hahaha. She noticed how quiet her crowd was.

The final song was "Cinderella". CB got back on stage. And for the nth time,
I went completely psycho-screaming-jumping-fan-girl! Hahaha! How many times did I mention that? I couldn't help it! There was something in him! Something in him that I can't explain. They were so sweet singing that song. CB even kissed Rihanna on her shoulder.♥

Wow, almost 6 hours of standing! We got there at 4pm and the show started at 8! plus! our area was filled with red ants. Great.
But it was all worth it!

Here are more pics of CB and Rihanna:
(All pictures are grabbed from someone named Toney, I just searched for good pictures and then appear her site. So, thank you to you!)

Wanna see one of the crappy pictures I took?

See! crappy! It's like Danny Devito trying to take a good picture. Haha.

The night was not all about CB and Rihanna, it was also about having a blast with some of my closest friends!

To top it all off, here's Mike trying to imitate my everyday get-up. Haha.

Hahaha! Exxxaaagggeee!

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' 10:11 AM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

A taste of We Are Scientists

We Are Scientists
UK, November 2006

I'm loving the band, We Are Scientists. They're freakin hilarious! They're songs and videos may not be that deep but I don't know, I like it! I think it's something new and cute!

Check out their music video I found!

It's like Andy Milonakis-inspired! Hahaha!
These guys are genius!

Oh, and I'm loving their song, "Nobody Moves, Nobody Get Hurt"
Listen to it!

Check them out! check out their MYSPACE!

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Wednesday, November 19, 2008 ' 8:18 PM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

1 year of blogging, blogging and more blogging!

My blog is 1 year already. Wow, time flies so fast. I completely remember myself trying to figure out how to change my blog address and ending up deleting it. I didn't knew I could change my blog address without disposing my blog. But anyways, my brain was too clogged that time that I didn't bother thinking of the other posts I will lose. I started blogging back in 2005 during my freshman days of high school and I would love to look back on those posts and just laugh. I was so innocent and not to mention, baduy! hahaha!

Happy 1 year hailthejewelofthelotus!

...speaking of the old days, I thought of sharing some things I used to like back then. It started when I randomly thought of searching my old account on Friendster (which was the last time I opened was in 2005). One word, YUCK!
Hahaha. Now I understand, every kid passes through THAT stage.
...stage of regrets! Haha.

HERE to view my old Friendster account.
Beware: Not for the sensitive heart.

Oh! and upon seeing my old account, I realized that I still do like those songs listed on my "Favorite Music" so I decided to download them.

"Let Me Hold You" - Bow Wow Feat. Omarion

"Crazy" - Javier

"Happy" - Ashanti

"Again" - Faith Evans

Ciao, Bella!

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Saturday, November 15, 2008 ' 4:28 PM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

"It's like I waited my whole life"

So, I'll be seeing CB and Rihanna tomorrow. I'm still not feeling the excitement YET. Maybe tomorrow morning. Oh gee, It's like Incubus concert days all over again, but this time, I'm not an obsessed psycho fan girl. Haha. See you tomorrow!


I officially love Katy Perry

Isn't that performance just magical? and the way she hosted the EMA's was phenomenal!

I love Katy Perry!
...except I don't wanna be caught kissing girls. ;)

Oh! and Pink's performance of "So What?" was raging!
Gotta love those pillow feathers! Hahaha.

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Friday, November 14, 2008 ' 4:01 PM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

Obama! Change!

From the Obama rally in Madison, WI Feb 13, 2008

'Change' is the word described for newly elected president, Barack Obama. I love Obama. I think he'll be a great leader for America. Plus! he's the first ever attractive president in the U.S.! OR! as I quote Lindsay Lohan, he's the first "colored" president. Bad! color will not change America, color is not an important factor for 'change'. It is the hope and the victory of a leader. That is, Obama. All hail Obama!
A change for the people, a change for America.
Good luck, America!

Wow, you might wanna elect ME as president! Hahaha!

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Sunday, November 9, 2008 ' 11:23 PM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

Shivers down my spine

Taken at VH1 Rock honors The Who
July 7, 2008

I get shivers down my spine whenever I see things which reminds me of the day that made me forget about everything. March 9, 2008.

Happy Incu-monthsary!

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Saturday, November 8, 2008 ' 10:50 PM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...


...and because it's November 8 today (you all know what that means), I thought of sharing this picture I stumbled upon a random blogger's blog a few months ago.

His name is Rico, he's an English-speaking man whore who somehow ruin my chances of meeting my heroes. Wow, thanks man!

Hahahaha! Happy monthsary, B!

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Friday, November 7, 2008 ' 1:13 AM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

A Pretty boy's birthday bash!


Mike had his birthday celebrated at N-lo's. We had a blast. Crazy WILD night. Well, wild for them. Hahaha. We had a couple of shots and a few started to feel tipsy. Then I looked at Lauren and about 30 minutes after her arrival, she got drunk already :| Haha. My goal that night was not to get drunk and do crazy things. My goal was simply to have a great time and take it easy. Me and P hanged-out the rest of the night. Funny actually 'coz we were waiting for Mike's brother just 'coz we had an itsy bitsy tiny crush on him. Hey, I know the guy has a girlfriend, he's not my type and all that shit but there's just something in him that's so attractive. Hahaha. P talked me in asking a picture with him which was a wrong move 'coz I felt pathetic after. But oh well...

Oh, and I hate the awkward feeling after this. Hahaha.

I had a birthday shot for Mike.
Just for you, Mike! Hahaha. It tasted like acetone though.

We pretty much had a good time throughout the rest of the night.
Thanks, Mike!

Some pictures during that night:

More pictures HERE!

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