I AM



Greetings Earthlings!

I am Beverly Kho living in North side, Manila.
My name means "Woman from the beaver meadow" which explains why I look like this.
I have once lived with Anne Frank back in the 1930's. I am allergic to powder and as a result, I have never felt non-sticky.
I have my own river named 'Emotion'. I have once felt isolated from this world and tried to fit in with the Egyptians.

If anybody has anymore questions beyond art, music, duplication, relevance, obsessions, literature,
heartbreak, disillusionment, love, death, the future, confusion, delusions, homosexuals, sleep machines,
mundanes, eco-friendly and vegetarians, please don't Google my name or ask your "friend who knows about me".
Call me at your Mom's house, I'll be there having a powder party.

Ok, enough about that. As you can see, this blog is filled with Incubus that's because
I AM a big big fan of them. I look up to them and they serve as my inspiration (Sometimes my distraction. Hi Brandon)

Besides BB and Incubus, I enjoy the sights of...
...FASHION
...ART
...MUSIC
...TRAVEL

Oh, and by the way, if your not using Mozilla Firefox, you won't be able to view my posts.

Cheers!

Lawyers


INSPIRATION
"The world is a drought when out of love
Please come back to us
You're all of the above
I'm making a choice to be out of touch
Leave me be he said, he said, he said,
Leave me here in my stark, raving, sick, sad little world!"


"We're both aligned in framed of mind but circumstance has got us good
And now you’re seeing a side of me I wished no one ever would
Yeah, if it's right to pick a fight, we’re fingers in a sugar bowl
Love isn’t perfect, even diamonds start out as coal"


"Should I apologize
If what I say burns your ears and stains your eyes?
Oh, did I crack your shell?
When it falls away, you'll see we exist as well!"


"I suggest we learn to love ourselves before it's made illegal
When will we learn? When will we change?
Just in time to see it all come down..."


"Was it something I said
Something I read and manifested that's getting you down
Don't you dare come to bed with that ambiguous look in your eye
I'd sooner sleep by an open fire and wake up fried"


"There's something about the look in your eyes
Something I noticed when the light was just right
It reminded me twice that I was alive
And it reminded me that you're so worth the fight"


"Could there be a familiar ring every time I sing about.
Cycle the tears everything in life no doubt I, I.
Reiterate till my jaw is offset,
But I'll say it again anyway,
What you give is what you get!"


"I take a look around; it´s evident the scene has changed.
And there are times when I feel improved, improved upon the past.
Then there are times when I can´t seem to understand at all
and yes it seems as though I´m goin nowhere...
really fucking fast, nowhere fast."


"I'm thinking of my soul severity
And I know everything you hate in me
Fill me up with over-pious badgerate
Throw them up; one of my favorite things"


"I hear you on the radio
You permeate my screen, its' unkind but
If I met you in a scissor fight
I'd cut off both your wings on principle alone"


"Hello!? I'm trying to focus
But my eyes deceive me.
Focus. I'm witnessing history...repeating."


"Picture the scene, where whatever you thought,
would, in the blink of an eye, manifest and become illustrated.
You'd be sure man that every line drawn reflected a life that you loved
not an existence that you hated.
So, must we demonstrate that we can't get it straight?
We've painted a picture, now we're drowning in the paint.
Let's figure out what the fuck it's about,
before the picture we painted chews us up and spits us out."


"There'd be no one to answer to
and complicate our lives,
we could be
the epitome of self sufficience."


"It isn't fair to mention, but it awes the crowd
Your fictional, plastic alibi
So take another hit, steal another line
Did you ever meet a leech who was good at goodbyes?"


"In my fantasy, I’m a Pantomime
I'll just move my hands and everyone sees what I mean
Words are too messy, and it’s way past time
To end in my mouth paint my face white and tried
To reinvent the sea, one wave a time
Speak without my voice and see the world by candlelight"


"I saw you standing in my headlights
I thought I’d run you down for the weight you left on me
Instead I punched rewind, reversed and drove away
And seeing you disappear in my rear view
brought to me the word 'reciprocity'"


"You stare at me like I'm a vitamin.
On the surface you hate,
but you know you need me.
I come dressed as any pill you deem fit.
Whatever helps you swallow the truth
all the more easily"


"My secret arsenal
is an infinite, ageless inkwell
it's a fountian of youth
and a patriot's weapon of choice."


"Enough bowing down to disillusion
Hats off and applause to rogues and evolution
The ripple effect is too good not to mention
If you're not affected, you’re not paying attention
It's too good, it's too good, not to have an effect"


"I see you in line, dragging your feet
you have my sympathy.
The day you were born, you were born free.
That is your privilege."


"Mend this careless thread, it's gone askew
(Thread on my sweater is pendulous, step back and pull it
Watch it unravel faster than a speeding bullet)"


"I'm at the end of my report again
For those who won't do apathy
You had the perfect opportunity
But plead the fifth and walked away"


"What if I was just dreaming? What if I lived in a pear?
What if I had a mustard drenched cucumber tied to my leg."


"Disconnect and let me drift until my upside down is right side in
Society must let the artist go to wander off into the nebula"


"Two weeks without my lover,
I'm in this boat alone
Floating down a river named Emotion
Will I make it back to shore or drift into the unknown."


"If this is right, I'd rather be wrong.
If this is sight, I'd rather be blind."


"Out of line, and indivisible
A crow left of the murder
Every piece contains a map of it all"


"You came, you saw, you conquered...everyone
And I'm left here guessing
Oh what went wrong"


"Kiss the sand goodbye because
the tide is coming up and in
yeah, water, water, water everywhere
and every chance to sink!"


"High fives to a better judgment
By saying less today, I will gain more
Low twos to you my fickle friend
Who brought the art of silent war"


"Some people fall in love and touch the sky
Some people fall in love and find quicksand
I hover somewhere in between
I swear…
I can’t make up my mind."


"Wake up everyone
How can you sleep at a time like this
Unless the dreamer is the real you
Listen to your voice
The one that tells you to taste past the tip of your tongue
Leap and the net will appear."


"I dream
that someday we'll be able to look back
on this together and say
It was for the best and that it
made us stronger today."


"All of my life
Where have you been
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
And if that day comes
I know we could win
I wonder if I'll ever see you again."


"He said Hey Sister.
It’s really really nice to meet ya.
I just met this 5 foot 7 guy who’s just my type.
I like the way he’s speaking his confidence is peaking.
Don’t like his baggy jeans but Imma like what’s underneath it.
And no I aint been to MIA
I heard that Cali never rains and New York heart awaits.
First let’s see the west end.
I’ll show you to my bridrens.
I’m likin' this American Boy. American Boy."


"You better think fast, think fast
'Cause you never know what's coming round the bend.
You better not blink, or breathe.
For consequence is a bigger word than you think."


"Put down your hollow tips
And kiss your lover's lips
And know that fate is what you make of it."


"'Cause' what I want
and what I need
is and will always be free."





LEAVE ME

TALK TO ME






LOOK BACK

I CAN SEE YOU

Saturday, January 31, 2009 ' 12:39 PM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

LOOK BOOK, B's new book, Lezlo transformation (Well, not anymore! Scroll down to find out.)

I've recently found out about this site where you can share your everyday get ups. Well that's a pretty shallow definition. It's about fashion. But you can't just sign up, you have to be invited where you will enter a code. Thanks P!
I've been addicted to it ever since. It's called lookbook.nu
CLICK HERE to check out my account!


I asked my Auntie to buy me B's sophomore book, "From the Murks of the Sultry Abyss" which was back in 2006. Since it was just available in the US, I had no choice but to wait about 2 years for me to actually read it!
I loooved every word of it! And again, genius work B!



How fake is the second picture below? Haha!


I just had a "Lezlo transformation" last last week. I had my hair coloured like brown-ish auburn. I loved it at first! and it looked exactly like Lezlo's (Lindsay Lohan) picture that I showed them. Except mine has blonde highlights. My hair was turning yellow-ish day by day because of the bleach blonde highlights that the stylist FORCED me to have. I had to dye my hair dark again because of school issues. It's ok, I just trashed away loads of money! Grrr.
This
WAS my hair...



Bye Lezlo. :(

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Sunday, January 18, 2009 ' 3:04 PM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

Incubus letters

I was amazed when I saw the new video the guys made on their official site. I saw it mid December and I was in awe! I loooved it! I did not know a way how to download that video. Searched it over at YouTube and someone posted it already. So here it is!





Wasn't that just genius??

So tell me, how does this make you feel?

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Saturday, January 17, 2009 ' 11:53 AM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

This 2009 I plan to...

......

1. Study in the university I prefer
2. Lose weight
3. Boxing lessons this summer (If not, buy my own human boxing thingy. You know what I mean)
4. Fashion design OR photography lessons
5. Visit relatives in US
6. Gain new friends
7. Improve socializing skills!

That's it FOR NOW. I don't wanna make my list any longer. That'll just decrease the accomplishing. :)

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Sunday, January 11, 2009 ' 12:46 PM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

...continuation

December 18 Christmas party / Rei's surprise bday bash
We had our traditional Christmas party. Sarcastically speaking, it was fun! Games and food, what's new?







After school, I jumped in and joined my folks with 'the plan'. And by 'plan' I mean Rei's surprise bday party! We all rode with Dana going to Rei's pad to arrange things.




A few hours passed, and the plan started to get exciting! Rei and the boys arrived and Rei's brother, Roy Bien (Roy Beans) said his line and up goes Rei in the attic (where we all hid our asses out)....

..."HAPPY BIRTHDAY REI!"

Dana showed up holding a huge sign. Rei was in awe! And he literally looked like he walked in the wrong house! Haha!


Rei was still in disbelief. He still could not take it in his system that we actually did an effort for him. Haha. He thanked us continuously.
You're welcome, Rei! I had to leave early 'coz me-going-there was unplanned after all.



CHRISTMAS
For me, Christmas was BLAH. I LOVE Christmas. If it is possible, I would like to spend every Christmas special. But no, I wasn't really feeling the 'Christmas spirit'. Received about a handful of Christmas gifts. Hooray. Hahaha.


HONG KONG
It's like the 8th or 9th time? I can't remember! I've had countless trips in HK and as a result, I felt like I was in Makati! Hahaha. I can still remember the first time I stepped into HK. Hello, out of place. It was the worst feeling ever. I felt like I was in a different planet and that all eyes were on me! And I still felt that awkwardness for the next 5 trips! hahaha! I was that of a dork back then.

Day 1

Streets of HK, airport, Park Lane hotel


Get-up for the day:



Day 2



IFC mall, streets of HK, Park Lane hotel


Get-up for the day:



Day 3

Park Lane hotel, Wellcome super market


Get-up for the day:



Day 4

Tom Lee, HK airport


NEW YEAR

New year for me was just a copy-paste of my Christmas. BLAH. but wait! not JUST a blah, but a disaster too! It felt horrible eating on new year's eve with dull vibes around the room. Okay, a quick story of what happened... ...Everything was fine, when I woke up, fireworks nearly blew up my brain! I am not a fan of firework noise. A fan of fireworks but not the noise.
Okay, back to the story, we started eating and the food was fine but not for my dad, you don't know how my dad is a perfectionist when it comes to food! yes, food. So, the food was...it was cold. Not just any cold but FREEZER cold. He was so pissed that he decided to just sleep. It was sad eating with just 4 people on the table. Sad, just sad.
I was in bemuse of what I felt. Kinda annoyed and felt sorry for my parents at the same time. Annoyed 'coz it randomly popped out of my head that while people from all over the world are having a blast on new year's eve, i am sitting my ass off and staring into space. I couldn't sleep and so I thought of one thing that makes me happy...
What else? Brandon Boyd and Incubus. So I just watched my Incubus dvd (which Ate Aylan gave to me earlier that day! Thanks Ate Ay!) It is an Incubus "When Incubus Attacks" DVD Vol. 2.
Yes, Im that of a loser receiving the dvd just now when it was released gazillion years ago. I've watched the dvd way back on YouTube though but I still wanted the real thing. As expected, it washed away my anger! Thanks B.

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Friday, January 9, 2009 ' 2:55 PM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

9th of the month!

the 'Classic Incubus' back then

Happy Incubus day!

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Thursday, January 8, 2009 ' 12:35 AM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

Will you be my American boy?

What's with 8th of the month again?
Oh yea. Brandon day!




"American Boy"

Just another one champion sound
Me and Estelle about to get down
Who the hottest in the world right now.
Just touched down in London town.
Bet they give me a pound.
Tell them put the money in my hand right now.
Tell the promoter we need more seats,
We just sold out all the floor seats

Take me on a trip, I'd like to go some day.
Take me to New York, I'd love to see LA.
I really want to come kick it with you.
You'll be my American Boy.

He said "Hey Sister.
It's really really nice to meet you."
I just met this 5 foot 7 guy who's just my type.
I like the way he's speaking his confidence is peaking.
Don't like his baggy jeans but I'm a like what's underneath them.
And no I ain't been to MIA
I heard that Cali never rains and New York heart awaits.
First let's see the west end.
I'll show you to my brethren.
I'm liking this American Boy. American Boy

Take me on a trip, I'd like to go some day
Take me to New York, I'd love to see LA.
I really want to come kick it with you.
You'll be my American Boy

Can we get away this weekend?
Take me to Broadway.
Let's go shopping baby then we'll go to a cafe
Let's go on the subway.
Take me to your hood.
I never been to Brooklyn and I'd like to see what's good.
Dress in all your fancy clothes.
Sneaker's looking Fresh to death, I'm loving those Shell Toes.
Walking that walk.
Talk that slick talk.
I'm liking this American Boy. American Boy.

Take me to Chicago, San Francisco Bay
Take me to New York, I'd love to see LA.
I really want to come kick it with you.
You'll be my American Boy

Who Killing em in the UK.
Everybody gonna to say you K, reluctantly, because most of this press don't f**k with me.
Estelle once said to me, "Cool down, down, don't act a fool now, now."
I always act a fool oww oww.
Ain't nothing new now now.
He crazy, I know what ya thinkin.
Ribena I know what you're drinking.
Rap singer. Chain Blinger.
Holla at the next chick soon as you're blinking.
What's you're persona.
About this Americana Brama.
Am I shallow cause all my clothes designer.
Dressed smart like a London Bloke.
Before he speak his suit bespoke.
And you thought he was cute before.
Look at this peacoat, tell me he's broke.
And I know you're not into all that.
I heard your lyrics I feel your spirit.
But I still talk that CASH.
Cause a lot wags want to hear it.
And I'm feeling like Mike at his Baddest.
The Pips at they Gladys.
And I know they love it.
So to hell with all that rubbish

Would you be my love, my love.
Could be mine would you be my love my love, could be mine
Could you be my love, my love.
Would you be my American Boy. American Boy

Take me on a trip, I'd like to go some day
Take me to Chicago, San Fransisco Bay.
I really want to come kick it with you.
You'll be my American Boy


'Nuff said.


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