Greetings Earthlings!

I am Beverly Kho living in North side, Manila.
My name means "Woman from the beaver meadow" which explains why I look like this.
I have once lived with Anne Frank back in the 1930's. I am allergic to powder and as a result, I have never felt non-sticky.
I have my own river named 'Emotion'. I have once felt isolated from this world and tried to fit in with the Egyptians.

If anybody has anymore questions beyond art, music, duplication, relevance, obsessions, literature,
heartbreak, disillusionment, love, death, the future, confusion, delusions, homosexuals, sleep machines,
mundanes, eco-friendly and vegetarians, please don't Google my name or ask your "friend who knows about me".
Call me at your Mom's house, I'll be there having a powder party.

Ok, enough about that. As you can see, this blog is filled with Incubus that's because
I AM a big big fan of them. I look up to them and they serve as my inspiration (Sometimes my distraction. Hi Brandon)

Besides BB and Incubus, I enjoy the sights of...

Oh, and by the way, if your not using Mozilla Firefox, you won't be able to view my posts.



"The world is a drought when out of love
Please come back to us
You're all of the above
I'm making a choice to be out of touch
Leave me be he said, he said, he said,
Leave me here in my stark, raving, sick, sad little world!"

"We're both aligned in framed of mind but circumstance has got us good
And now you’re seeing a side of me I wished no one ever would
Yeah, if it's right to pick a fight, we’re fingers in a sugar bowl
Love isn’t perfect, even diamonds start out as coal"

"Should I apologize
If what I say burns your ears and stains your eyes?
Oh, did I crack your shell?
When it falls away, you'll see we exist as well!"

"I suggest we learn to love ourselves before it's made illegal
When will we learn? When will we change?
Just in time to see it all come down..."

"Was it something I said
Something I read and manifested that's getting you down
Don't you dare come to bed with that ambiguous look in your eye
I'd sooner sleep by an open fire and wake up fried"

"There's something about the look in your eyes
Something I noticed when the light was just right
It reminded me twice that I was alive
And it reminded me that you're so worth the fight"

"Could there be a familiar ring every time I sing about.
Cycle the tears everything in life no doubt I, I.
Reiterate till my jaw is offset,
But I'll say it again anyway,
What you give is what you get!"

"I take a look around; it´s evident the scene has changed.
And there are times when I feel improved, improved upon the past.
Then there are times when I can´t seem to understand at all
and yes it seems as though I´m goin nowhere...
really fucking fast, nowhere fast."

"I'm thinking of my soul severity
And I know everything you hate in me
Fill me up with over-pious badgerate
Throw them up; one of my favorite things"

"I hear you on the radio
You permeate my screen, its' unkind but
If I met you in a scissor fight
I'd cut off both your wings on principle alone"

"Hello!? I'm trying to focus
But my eyes deceive me.
Focus. I'm witnessing history...repeating."

"Picture the scene, where whatever you thought,
would, in the blink of an eye, manifest and become illustrated.
You'd be sure man that every line drawn reflected a life that you loved
not an existence that you hated.
So, must we demonstrate that we can't get it straight?
We've painted a picture, now we're drowning in the paint.
Let's figure out what the fuck it's about,
before the picture we painted chews us up and spits us out."

"There'd be no one to answer to
and complicate our lives,
we could be
the epitome of self sufficience."

"It isn't fair to mention, but it awes the crowd
Your fictional, plastic alibi
So take another hit, steal another line
Did you ever meet a leech who was good at goodbyes?"

"In my fantasy, I’m a Pantomime
I'll just move my hands and everyone sees what I mean
Words are too messy, and it’s way past time
To end in my mouth paint my face white and tried
To reinvent the sea, one wave a time
Speak without my voice and see the world by candlelight"

"I saw you standing in my headlights
I thought I’d run you down for the weight you left on me
Instead I punched rewind, reversed and drove away
And seeing you disappear in my rear view
brought to me the word 'reciprocity'"

"You stare at me like I'm a vitamin.
On the surface you hate,
but you know you need me.
I come dressed as any pill you deem fit.
Whatever helps you swallow the truth
all the more easily"

"My secret arsenal
is an infinite, ageless inkwell
it's a fountian of youth
and a patriot's weapon of choice."

"Enough bowing down to disillusion
Hats off and applause to rogues and evolution
The ripple effect is too good not to mention
If you're not affected, you’re not paying attention
It's too good, it's too good, not to have an effect"

"I see you in line, dragging your feet
you have my sympathy.
The day you were born, you were born free.
That is your privilege."

"Mend this careless thread, it's gone askew
(Thread on my sweater is pendulous, step back and pull it
Watch it unravel faster than a speeding bullet)"

"I'm at the end of my report again
For those who won't do apathy
You had the perfect opportunity
But plead the fifth and walked away"

"What if I was just dreaming? What if I lived in a pear?
What if I had a mustard drenched cucumber tied to my leg."

"Disconnect and let me drift until my upside down is right side in
Society must let the artist go to wander off into the nebula"

"Two weeks without my lover,
I'm in this boat alone
Floating down a river named Emotion
Will I make it back to shore or drift into the unknown."

"If this is right, I'd rather be wrong.
If this is sight, I'd rather be blind."

"Out of line, and indivisible
A crow left of the murder
Every piece contains a map of it all"

"You came, you saw, you conquered...everyone
And I'm left here guessing
Oh what went wrong"

"Kiss the sand goodbye because
the tide is coming up and in
yeah, water, water, water everywhere
and every chance to sink!"

"High fives to a better judgment
By saying less today, I will gain more
Low twos to you my fickle friend
Who brought the art of silent war"

"Some people fall in love and touch the sky
Some people fall in love and find quicksand
I hover somewhere in between
I swear…
I can’t make up my mind."

"Wake up everyone
How can you sleep at a time like this
Unless the dreamer is the real you
Listen to your voice
The one that tells you to taste past the tip of your tongue
Leap and the net will appear."

"I dream
that someday we'll be able to look back
on this together and say
It was for the best and that it
made us stronger today."

"All of my life
Where have you been
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
And if that day comes
I know we could win
I wonder if I'll ever see you again."

"He said Hey Sister.
It’s really really nice to meet ya.
I just met this 5 foot 7 guy who’s just my type.
I like the way he’s speaking his confidence is peaking.
Don’t like his baggy jeans but Imma like what’s underneath it.
And no I aint been to MIA
I heard that Cali never rains and New York heart awaits.
First let’s see the west end.
I’ll show you to my bridrens.
I’m likin' this American Boy. American Boy."

"You better think fast, think fast
'Cause you never know what's coming round the bend.
You better not blink, or breathe.
For consequence is a bigger word than you think."

"Put down your hollow tips
And kiss your lover's lips
And know that fate is what you make of it."

"'Cause' what I want
and what I need
is and will always be free."





Saturday, January 26, 2008 ' 6:51 PM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

Dream kit.

Paul Reed Smith Guitars
Fender Guitars
62 Jazzmaster

Jerry Jones Electric Sitars
Mesa TremoVerb Amps
Mesa Rectifier Cabinets
Hughes&Kettner Rotosphere
BOSS Delay/Reverb Pedal
BOSS Compression Sustainer pedal
BOSS BF-2 Flanger Pedal
2 BOSS PH-2 Super Phaser Pedals
MXR phase 90 pedal
DOD FX13 Gonkulator Modulators
DOD Envelope Filter
Korg Rack Tuner
Shure Wireless
Dunlop Tortex Picks
Earnie Ball Strings

Inspiration: Mike Einziger

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' 8:52 AM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

See you there kids!

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Thursday, January 24, 2008 ' 4:13 PM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...


Remember, I have a plan...hahaha

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' 4:07 PM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

Pass to the greatest concert ever!

I got my tickets nung Sunday at SM Makati.

CAUTION: Wag kayo magc-claim ng tickets sa SM Makati. People there are EXTRA stupid. Pinakaba pa ko nung isang employee dun sabi niya wala daw naka-record sa computer yung pina reserve ko na-tickets, yun pala maling name lang pala yung tinitingnan niya all those time. haha! I think more than 30 mins na ko naka-pila.

A girl behind me asks me:
Girl: Excuse me, kelan yang ticket mo?
Me: Um, March.
Girl: Sus, March pa pala eh. (rolling of eyes)

Pagtingin ko haba na pala nung pila, tagal kasi nung employee na yun eh. And again, she's extra stupid.

Enough of that shit. I'm so excited! Only 44 days to go! Naka-get over na ko na row S lang yung ticket ko, na pang 19th row ako, na masyado ako nag-expect ng row A ayan tuloy row S ang nakuha ko, na lugi ako dahil may lamang pa ko na 500 pesos sa lower box eh ganun rin naman ang view, na di ko makikita ng malapitan ang sexy body ni Brandon. haha.

But! there's a but! According to a friend of mine, kasi she's been to Araneta for the Fall Out Boy concert. She gave me a plan para maka-punta ako sa harap. Secret ko nalang yun. haha. I'm sooo looking forward to that plan.

Grabe, gulo talaga ng Ticketnet kasi sabi nila rows A-J are for the sponsors and promoters so rows K-Z lang ang binibenta nila pero I contacted a person from http://www.enjoyincubus.com , she said that naka-bili siya ng row E! she called daw ng 6pm ng Jan. 18 which was the day that I called. I called at 7 pm. 1 hour! 1 hour! ok lang, wala na tayo magagawa. Halo-halo pala mag open ang ticketnet ng tickets, pero labo talaga eh..

For sure mga celebrities and anak ng mg politiko ang sa front. Mga celebrities na "Stellar" o "Drive" lang ang alam na kanta (yung iba na mahalig mag-multiply diyan, gets ako. haha). Lame. Lucky them... sucks for us.

Oh well, let's just wait for the greatest day of our lives, wag kayong mag-madali mga kids dahil malulunkot din kayo pag tapos na yung araw na yun, kaya i-enjoy niyo muna ang mahabang wait. Kaya nga Enjoyincubus eh. haha, yak. baduy ko.

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Friday, January 18, 2008 ' 8:54 PM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

After those continuous calls?

I call each and everyday to check if Incubus tickets are available already. But this week since it's long test week I was to busy to call. I called kanina lang. Guess what? Row S nalang ng VIP ang available! NOOO! I reserved 3 tickets for Me, Mara, and My brother. My ticket is VIP PT101 ROW S (1st box, red part on that picture) Ok na yun. but I really expected for Row A!! They said that tickets opened yesterday at 10 am. I called at around 7am that time, stupid me 9am nga pala nagbubukas ang ticketnet hotline. Grr, badtrip. Grabe, na-realize ko na buhay na buhay parin pala ang Incubus spirit dito. Kala ko wala na eh. I called Mara to tell her about this. Seryoso, naiyak na talaga ako. haha. Pano ba naman kasi, I've been waiting for this since 2004 man! I called Luis narin coz I remember him telling me that his tito's family is the head of Araneta. but he doesn't know pa daw if he is still the handler of the tickets. Garrr. bwisit! Kahit Row L or M man lang?? I'm gonna die! Ok lang yan, at least may tickets.

It's time we met and made a mess...Brandon. haha

*60 tickets left for VIP. Bili na!

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Saturday, January 12, 2008 ' 10:41 AM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

Some random Incuvids

Making of "Anna Molly"

Making of "Wish You Were Here"

Making of "Stellar"

'Pants' by Ben Kenney and Brandon Boyd

Mike and Brandon showing some ♥

Incubus tour bus back in 1998

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' 10:15 AM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...


The title has no meaning, An old song is playing right now on the radio.Puro forever lang kasi yung sinasabi. hahaha

Hang Kang
I went to Hk again nung Dec. 26 - 30, My dad already bought tickets for us. So, no choice. Asusual, I bought ALOT of stuff. Ayoko na isipin kung ano ang total cost of all the stuff I bought. haha. Read my Dec. 26 and 27 post nalang. I was at the hotel when I did that. I'm too lazy to go thru all that we've done. Btw, I bought a pink Sony T2 digicam! woo!

NEW YEAR 2008!

This is so funny. This you HAVE to watch.

One word. LAME.

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Wednesday, January 2, 2008 ' 8:36 PM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

First post for 2008!

Here I go again, once I've start blogging regularly, I tend to get too lazy to update continuously afterwards. So, here's what you've missed:
  • Ruth Visits. At around I think November, Ruth visited us at school. It was my first time seeing her since she left OB. We were just sharing stories in class during our free time when suddenly Reba shouted looking at the window. We all looked and hurriedly ran towards her. We were all happy to see her. Bea even cried cos she missed her. I was preventing my tears to come down but when I saw Bea, I couldn't help it. When I saw her, I realized how much I really missed her. I really hope that she'll decide to stay.
  • Food Fair. I was assigned at the booth called "Meals On Wheels". I was one of the cooks. It was super tiring. The whole day I was at the other booth "Binalot na Kanin Ulam" cos they didn't let me help =(. haha. The day was pretty much boring, tiring, and hot.
  • Bazaar. Me and Louie were the only students that sold some stuff just cos we thought that students are the ones who are selling, much to our surprise parents are the ones who are selling, students are just allowed to buy. But it's ok, since wala na kami magagwa, we just told the teachers that our guardians are on the their way. I sold some random stuff, old and new. Gulat nga ko dami bumibili. Di naman magaganda binebenta ko. Lou's mom and my yaya came, Mom came too together with Tita Pia! I was surprised that she bought some stuff, eh samin rin naman mapupunta yun. haha! All in all, I earned P5,600. Ok na yun for the lame stuff I just wanna get rid off my room. hehehe.
  • Christmas Party. At the 20th of December was our Christmas Party. The party was hmm, ok. Nothing special. This day was the start of my "pigging-out" phase. haha. I was fetched late so Me and Hen just hanged out with Luis and the gang. haha. Me and Luis talked about the upcoming concert of Incubus here, I was enveloped by a euphoric feeling when Luis asked me if I wanted to meet Brandon Boyd, cos his tito or something is the head of Araneta, something like that. I was speechless. And in that moment, Luis was my favorite person in the planet! sana nga mangyari. haha. When I got home, I realized that I recieved no gift from Hen, I was confuse kung binigyan niya ba ko or hindi. So I im-ed her and asked. She gave me naman daw. Then I remember na naiwan ko pala sa school. Great. Ganda pa naman yun, Kamiseta saw na necklace. Tsk. So, we had our own Christmas party at our house in Bf Homes. The usual parin, relatives, family friends, exchange gifts, kainan, raffle. We got home at The Fort at around 1 am.

  • Merry Christmas! Our Christmas was the usual. Kuya Pye and Ate Rai spent Christmas with us!

I just have to tell this. This is nonsense though.
One day at school, Me, Hen, and Bea were just hanging around by the gate, waiting for our sundo. A cute guy went out of car, He was wearing shades so we didn't recognize who he was. Then Hen said, "Guys, boyfriend ko." Then the guy was looking for Fiona Buendia, a grade school student. Guess who the guy was? It was Ely Buendia. hahaha. He was fetching her niece and her son on the other building. haha. The last time I say him back in 2005, He wasn't that cute. But now...hmmm..
I asked Fiona some info about...yea, him. Not Ely ok? him. haha. Bahala na kayo humusga.

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