I AM



Greetings Earthlings!

I am Beverly Kho living in North side, Manila.
My name means "Woman from the beaver meadow" which explains why I look like this.
I have once lived with Anne Frank back in the 1930's. I am allergic to powder and as a result, I have never felt non-sticky.
I have my own river named 'Emotion'. I have once felt isolated from this world and tried to fit in with the Egyptians.

If anybody has anymore questions beyond art, music, duplication, relevance, obsessions, literature,
heartbreak, disillusionment, love, death, the future, confusion, delusions, homosexuals, sleep machines,
mundanes, eco-friendly and vegetarians, please don't Google my name or ask your "friend who knows about me".
Call me at your Mom's house, I'll be there having a powder party.

Ok, enough about that. As you can see, this blog is filled with Incubus that's because
I AM a big big fan of them. I look up to them and they serve as my inspiration (Sometimes my distraction. Hi Brandon)

Besides BB and Incubus, I enjoy the sights of...
...FASHION
...ART
...MUSIC
...TRAVEL

Oh, and by the way, if your not using Mozilla Firefox, you won't be able to view my posts.

Cheers!

Lawyers


INSPIRATION
"The world is a drought when out of love
Please come back to us
You're all of the above
I'm making a choice to be out of touch
Leave me be he said, he said, he said,
Leave me here in my stark, raving, sick, sad little world!"


"We're both aligned in framed of mind but circumstance has got us good
And now you’re seeing a side of me I wished no one ever would
Yeah, if it's right to pick a fight, we’re fingers in a sugar bowl
Love isn’t perfect, even diamonds start out as coal"


"Should I apologize
If what I say burns your ears and stains your eyes?
Oh, did I crack your shell?
When it falls away, you'll see we exist as well!"


"I suggest we learn to love ourselves before it's made illegal
When will we learn? When will we change?
Just in time to see it all come down..."


"Was it something I said
Something I read and manifested that's getting you down
Don't you dare come to bed with that ambiguous look in your eye
I'd sooner sleep by an open fire and wake up fried"


"There's something about the look in your eyes
Something I noticed when the light was just right
It reminded me twice that I was alive
And it reminded me that you're so worth the fight"


"Could there be a familiar ring every time I sing about.
Cycle the tears everything in life no doubt I, I.
Reiterate till my jaw is offset,
But I'll say it again anyway,
What you give is what you get!"


"I take a look around; it´s evident the scene has changed.
And there are times when I feel improved, improved upon the past.
Then there are times when I can´t seem to understand at all
and yes it seems as though I´m goin nowhere...
really fucking fast, nowhere fast."


"I'm thinking of my soul severity
And I know everything you hate in me
Fill me up with over-pious badgerate
Throw them up; one of my favorite things"


"I hear you on the radio
You permeate my screen, its' unkind but
If I met you in a scissor fight
I'd cut off both your wings on principle alone"


"Hello!? I'm trying to focus
But my eyes deceive me.
Focus. I'm witnessing history...repeating."


"Picture the scene, where whatever you thought,
would, in the blink of an eye, manifest and become illustrated.
You'd be sure man that every line drawn reflected a life that you loved
not an existence that you hated.
So, must we demonstrate that we can't get it straight?
We've painted a picture, now we're drowning in the paint.
Let's figure out what the fuck it's about,
before the picture we painted chews us up and spits us out."


"There'd be no one to answer to
and complicate our lives,
we could be
the epitome of self sufficience."


"It isn't fair to mention, but it awes the crowd
Your fictional, plastic alibi
So take another hit, steal another line
Did you ever meet a leech who was good at goodbyes?"


"In my fantasy, I’m a Pantomime
I'll just move my hands and everyone sees what I mean
Words are too messy, and it’s way past time
To end in my mouth paint my face white and tried
To reinvent the sea, one wave a time
Speak without my voice and see the world by candlelight"


"I saw you standing in my headlights
I thought I’d run you down for the weight you left on me
Instead I punched rewind, reversed and drove away
And seeing you disappear in my rear view
brought to me the word 'reciprocity'"


"You stare at me like I'm a vitamin.
On the surface you hate,
but you know you need me.
I come dressed as any pill you deem fit.
Whatever helps you swallow the truth
all the more easily"


"My secret arsenal
is an infinite, ageless inkwell
it's a fountian of youth
and a patriot's weapon of choice."


"Enough bowing down to disillusion
Hats off and applause to rogues and evolution
The ripple effect is too good not to mention
If you're not affected, you’re not paying attention
It's too good, it's too good, not to have an effect"


"I see you in line, dragging your feet
you have my sympathy.
The day you were born, you were born free.
That is your privilege."


"Mend this careless thread, it's gone askew
(Thread on my sweater is pendulous, step back and pull it
Watch it unravel faster than a speeding bullet)"


"I'm at the end of my report again
For those who won't do apathy
You had the perfect opportunity
But plead the fifth and walked away"


"What if I was just dreaming? What if I lived in a pear?
What if I had a mustard drenched cucumber tied to my leg."


"Disconnect and let me drift until my upside down is right side in
Society must let the artist go to wander off into the nebula"


"Two weeks without my lover,
I'm in this boat alone
Floating down a river named Emotion
Will I make it back to shore or drift into the unknown."


"If this is right, I'd rather be wrong.
If this is sight, I'd rather be blind."


"Out of line, and indivisible
A crow left of the murder
Every piece contains a map of it all"


"You came, you saw, you conquered...everyone
And I'm left here guessing
Oh what went wrong"


"Kiss the sand goodbye because
the tide is coming up and in
yeah, water, water, water everywhere
and every chance to sink!"


"High fives to a better judgment
By saying less today, I will gain more
Low twos to you my fickle friend
Who brought the art of silent war"


"Some people fall in love and touch the sky
Some people fall in love and find quicksand
I hover somewhere in between
I swear…
I can’t make up my mind."


"Wake up everyone
How can you sleep at a time like this
Unless the dreamer is the real you
Listen to your voice
The one that tells you to taste past the tip of your tongue
Leap and the net will appear."


"I dream
that someday we'll be able to look back
on this together and say
It was for the best and that it
made us stronger today."


"All of my life
Where have you been
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
And if that day comes
I know we could win
I wonder if I'll ever see you again."


"He said Hey Sister.
It’s really really nice to meet ya.
I just met this 5 foot 7 guy who’s just my type.
I like the way he’s speaking his confidence is peaking.
Don’t like his baggy jeans but Imma like what’s underneath it.
And no I aint been to MIA
I heard that Cali never rains and New York heart awaits.
First let’s see the west end.
I’ll show you to my bridrens.
I’m likin' this American Boy. American Boy."


"You better think fast, think fast
'Cause you never know what's coming round the bend.
You better not blink, or breathe.
For consequence is a bigger word than you think."


"Put down your hollow tips
And kiss your lover's lips
And know that fate is what you make of it."


"'Cause' what I want
and what I need
is and will always be free."





LEAVE ME

TALK TO ME






LOOK BACK

I CAN SEE YOU

Tuesday, March 25, 2008 ' 6:00 PM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

Away time, at last!

I went to school today to take an exam that I missed and so did Pat and Mek. Hanged-out at school, Me and Pat ate breakfast at 7-Eleven. I was preventing myself to burst into laughter when I heard this girl order for some slurpee. She's a student from a public school, I guess?

Girl: Ate, isa pong slarpee.
Employee:
Ano?

Girl: Ah, slarpee po, slarpee. (Inulit pa eh. haha!)

I'm mean, I know. haha.

So Pat went back to take her other exam.
Kakatuwa ang video call! haha.

Then since were bored, me and Pat decided to have our nails done. Arte! hehe. I asked Anica to come with us. So, went to Pat's house, Mike came then we all went to Pergola, ate at Hot Shots then went to Starbucks. Pat and Anica asked kung pano daw mag-summer job dun. They said that you have to be 18 years of age and up. Forgot the rest, basta isa lang ibig sabihin, di pa kami pwede. haha!

Anica and Mike went home, Me and Pat got our nails done at Nail essentials. On the way, I spotted a super cute skater guy. He was American. First, I saw a skater kid then an older one, then BOOM! a cute guy with a cap on leaning on the wall. I texted Hen and Mara. I just wanted to share my happiness. hehe. Me and Pat had our mani pedi with foot spa, It was nice. Got home at around 8.
Nails were ruined the morning after. Grrr.

Ok, enough. Tomorrow, friends will come over here and we MIGHT go to Jaipur. Batangas - cancelled, Dad going out of the country - cancelled. Great. Hopefully tomorrow will be fun. Yea, it will be fun. haha!

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' 1:54 PM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

I don't do this...

But since this one's a bit interesting? (I guess) I'll answer it. hehe.
Got this fro Jacque De Borja's blog.

I give you money and send you into the grocery store to pick up 6 items.
You can only pick one thing from the following departments.. what is it?
1. Bakery: Gardenia choco bread
2. Produce: Baby corn! and cauliflower. hehe
3. Meat: definitely chicken
4. Frozen: Haagen Dazs
5. Dry goods: chips, chips, and more chips!
6. Dairy: cheese!

If I was to listen in on one of your conversations throughout the day..
What 5 phrases or words would I be most likely to hear?
1. what the hell?!
2. nice.
3. great.
4. mmmm.
5. riiggghhhtt.

Sweet, you just scored a whole day to yourself. What 5 activities might we find you doing?
1. getting a new look at the salon
2. beach with family friends
3. night out with friends
4. buying the stuff on my "To Buy" list. hehe.
5. checking my mails and stuff at the net.

We’re going to the zoo, but it looks like it could start storming, so it’ll have to be a quick visit. What 3 exhibits do we have to get to?
1. definitely dolphins!
2. koalas, if meron.
3. sharks, para matakot ako. haha.

You just scored tickets to the taping of any live show that comes on TV of your choice.
1. Tyra or Jay Leno

You’re hungry for ice cream. I’ll give you a triple dipper ice cream cone:
1. vanilla
2. melon
3. choco chip

Somebody stole your wallet. In order to get it back, you have to name 5 things you know are inside to claim it.
1. 2nd and 3rd year hs ids
2. pick
3. body shop discount card
4. incubus concert ticket
5. bpi atm card

You are at a job fair, and asked what areas you are interested in pursuing a career in.
Let’s pretend you have every talent and ability to be whatever you wanted, so what 4 careers would be fun for you?
1. fashion designing
2. production arts
3. any about travel, int'l studies
4. photography?

If you could go back and talk to the old you when you were in your early years in high school, and inform yourself of 4 things, what would you say?
1. a freshman and a senior? DON'T EVEN THINK ABOUT IT.
2. don't go 'gaga' over a Korean dude. haha!
3. leaving your best friends over new friends is a BIG mistake.
4. when you know nothing about dancing, don't join the cheering squad! haha. harsh enough.

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Saturday, March 22, 2008 ' 2:14 PM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

I KNOW.


Obsessed na kung obsessed. Haha. I was obsessed even before I saw him in person.
March 8, 2008, around 4 pm at Crowne Plaza, Lobby. I SAW BRANDON. Right in my face. With the other loves of my life Mike and Jose. Owmen, Di talaga matangal sa utak ko! Help! haha. (Read March 8 post)

Of course this I-M is fake. Duh. Tagal kasi mag-reply ni Kilmore sa Myspace, I'm so bothered if they really got the shirts or not. KILMORE! REPLY! Last login naman niya is March 20, eh ang tagal ko na sinend yung message na yun. Oh men, bakit sa iba nag reply siya =(

Isa lang ang cure for this obsession, I have to find a complete Brandon look-alike, quick! Yea, complete with the hair, face, moves (Yea, THOSE moves), style, sense of humor, tattoos, etc. Whatever era of Brandon will do, old, young, whatever. Basta. haha.

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Thursday, March 20, 2008 ' 8:05 PM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

Delete delete delete!

Erase everything that I've said 2 hours ago! Something suddenly came up and it was the total opposite of my post earlier! Now I believe, If your a good person, God will answer your prayers in an instant! haha!

Hello, Anilao, Batangas!
Hello 3 days without Dad! Freedom!
Hello night outs with friends!

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' 6:50 PM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

and you call this summer VACATION?


FREEDOM, OUTDOOR, NEW STUFF, OUTINGS, FUN, FRIENDS, HANG-OUT, EXPLORE, TRAVEL, EXPERIENCE....

These are the words that describes the word 'VACATION', unfortunately, I'm stuck here at home. I feel like I'm in JAIL. I hate this. Every time I have plans, I end up staying at home and wondering WHY? WHY WHY WHY?? I feel so depressed, It's like winter season, when you have no choice but to stay at home because of the climate. And yet, winter does not exist here in Manila. Well, I guess it does exist in our family. Did I mention how much I hate this?

This situation is sooo bad that it made me think of how fun it is when school is back. Yea, that bad. Arrrggghhhhh! I wannna go out!

The number 1 thing that I would most likely to do is to visit my relatives in L.A. or my other relatives in New York. Guess that plan wouldn't push through either.

I envy those people who has all their fucking freedom to do whatever they want (but still has limitations though) they can go out, go to the beach, travel, try new stuff, etcetera etcetera. Yea, I can do that too, but I have to do all the drama first!
God! this is so annoying.

Worst case scenario is, when school starts, I'll gain 20 pounds of fat just 'cause the whole entire summer all I did was eat, net, and sleep and the cycle continues.

I'm not blaming anyone for this. I just wanna let it all out.
But let's see, let's see. Maybe things will change.

Ok, off topic. I realized something, I haven't gone to church for a gazillion years now! I wanna go to church! Our christian fellowship in BF. I wanna release and clear stuff in there, and that's the best place to do it. Ummm, fine! I have another itsy bitsy tiny thing why I wanna go to church. hehe. I haven't seen him for quite long you know! I miss talking to him, and laughing about random stuff. Good times good times!

Ok, I will stop saying this because I've been saying this forever and every time I say it, It won't happen. But I'll still say it, haha. I wanna lose pounds! Like 10 or more pounds! Seriously! That has been my goal since...FOREVER! I wanna be like Serena Van Der Woodsen or Carolyn Murphy or Bubbles Paraiso. haha! ok, enough.


Don't forget to pray before you sleep kids! CIAO!

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Wednesday, March 19, 2008 ' 11:07 AM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

Cheers.

NU 107 Interview with Brandon Boyd 03/03/08



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Tuesday, March 11, 2008 ' 4:54 PM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

BEST HOUR OF MY LIFE EVER!
Well, except for...scroll down to find out.

INCUBUS Pacific Rim Tour live in Manila! March 9, 2008

It has been 2 days since the concert and I still can't get over it! and why do I feel so unaccomplished? Maybe because there were things that I was really confident about but then It didn't push through. That's ok, It was God's decision.

So, Mara stopped by here at our condo. We just hanged-out and did some random stuff. We were waiting for Kuya Pao to come. Then finally! haha. We arrived at Araneta at 7:30 pm I think. Muntik na ma-confiscate yung pro cam ni Mara. Good thing she came up with a plan. So we got in. I saw a lot of familiar faces. I saw Paulo! I was calling him! He was at row B and I was at row E, likod niya kami. Me and Mara was thinking of plans on how we could get to the barricade. So she came up with a plan. Hiramin ko daw yung tickets ni Paulo then pakita namin sa bouncer para i-guide kami, kunwari samin yun. Then di ma-gets ni Pau and isang ticket lang pinahiram niya. So I did the plan nga. I borrowed the ticket and showed it to the bouncer. Rows A and B are allowed at the barricade so I went to the barricade beside me was Anne Curtis and Sam Milby. Great. Then Mara couldn't think of a plan coz ayaw na ipahiram ni Pau yung isang ticket so I went back and talked to the bouncer and I was asking him questions na paulit-ulit kunwari di ko nagegets so that Mara could sneak in. Pero di niya nagawa as in ang tagal ko nang kinakausap yung bouncer.

*Sorry Pau! Favorite mo Updharmadown and di mo na-enjoy coz I was bugging you. I feel so guilty. Nagsisisi tuloy ako. Really sorry Pau!!*

So, bumalik na ko sa barricade but ibang side na. Then eto na, the best part.


Am-boy: "Excuse me miss, where's your ticket?"
Me: "It's there with my friend."
Am-boy: *took care with some fighting business he had with a random girl* (dunno why)
Am-boy: *calls* "Hello Mom? There are a lot of fucking people going here in front..." *blah blah blah* (spoiled brat)

Then he got back at me.

Amboy: *taps me on the shoulder* "Miss miss, can I see your ticket?"
Me: "It's with my friend ok?!"
Amboy: "Miss miss.."
Me: "Will you stop bugging me?!!"
Amboy: "Ah." *calls the bouncer*
Me: *talks to his friend* "Can you please tell your fucking friend to leave me alone?! I paid ten thousand for this and this is what I get?!" (not true. haha)
Oh-so-generous-friend: "Ok, I will, I will. Chill chill.

A bouncer approaches me together with the amboy.
Bouncer: "Miss, pede makita ticket niyo?"
Me: "It's with my friend."
Bouncer: "Ah, hindi po yung friend mo hinahanap namin."
Me: "Fuckers." *Pushes the amboy to the spot that he wanted.*

Wala na, pahiya na ko ano pa ba magagawa ko? haha.

I went back to my seat in row E. I was so ashamed. haha. I told Mara all about it. I told her this amboy wearing blue shirt blah blah. Then she pointed, "Yan ba? sa tabi mo?" Kinabahan ako but it was not him sobrang sakto lang sila nang suot. haha!
She got hurt coz she thought that I have no plans in coming back for her. But I did! my plan was to get her when the show starts.

The soundman keeps on teasing us, parang is-stop niya yung oldies music na nagp-play then sigawan ang audience kasi kala nila start na then ibabalik ulit. haha.

Finally, the lights were turned off! Sigawan! I went one row ahead which is row D, I was standing at this guy's chair. Buti nalang sobrang bait niya. Then biglang labas sina Jose, Kilmore, and Ben then Mike, then Brandon. I was shaking the two guys in front of me (yung owner nung chair) haha! Di ko napapansin eh. They started playing "Quicksand" and I cried, seriously! haha. I couldn't help it. My favorite band in the whole entire world who I thought na makikita ko lang sa pictures at sa Youtube o maririnig ko lang sa I-pod ko is actually playing live! Right in front of me! haha.

Super sigaw ako, kung ano ano sinisigaw ko. Pag tatahimik saka ako sisigaw eh. haha. I was shouting "I LOVE YOU BRANDON!!" basta lahat sila na- I love you ko. Sumigaw pa ko, "MARRY ME MIKE!" habang nagso-solo siya sa "Sick, Sad, Little World"

Sobrang kahit andiyan na sila sa harap ko, feeling ko untouchable parin sila. Siguro nalang kung nasa barricade ako, yun, mafe-feel ko talaga. But hindi eh, thanks alot to Mr. Amboy.

My favorite part was yung nag-topless si Brandon sa "Sick, Sad, Little World", tied his hair, then uminom ng water then he spitted it out up in the air! Sobrang HOT! I seriously fell down in my chair when he went topless. haha. Basta all throughot the show I was screaming, dancing, singing, basta lahat na.

Pinaka nagwala ako, nung plinay nila, "Vitamin", "Favorite Things", "Sick, Sad, Little World" and "Circles". I was shouting, "PRIVILEGE!" I badly wanted them to play that song o kaya "Rogues".

They all left quietly, kala nung iba tapos na but I knew they'd come back for an encore. Everybody was shouting, "MORE!" "INCUBUS INCUBUS!" "ENCORE!!" So they came back and played "Stellar" then "Circles" then last song, "Aqueous Transmission"

Kung napanuod niyo yung Look Alive DVD, you'll see the similarity. Lalo na sa exit, "Aqueous Transmission" was playing, una exit si Brandon, then Ben (he even lifted his bass up! Parang talaga sa LA DVD), then Jose (threw his drum sticks), then Kilmore exited while Mike was throwing picks. I wanted a pick so badly!

After the concert we called Kuya Harley kaagad kasi nga..basta read my March 8 post. Too bad nakaalis na daw sila. Pero I wanted to go to Crowne Plaza pa just in case maabutan sila. But ayaw na ng bro ko. So we went to Jolibee The Fort and guess what? andun yung friends ni Amboy. Super tingin sila sakin. haha. Then pagtingin ko sa window I saw a blue shirt. Natatakpan ng poster yung face niya. So sabi ko sa bro ko lipat kami ng table. Plano ko na nga to do the finger at him but pag labas namin di pala siya yun. haha.

Habang nasa Jolibee, di pa ako nakuntento and I called Kuya Harley.

Me: "Hello, Kuya Harley? Asan na sila?"
Harley: "Nadito sa kwarto."
Me: "Ah, hindi pa sila pupunta ng Hong Kong?"
Harley: "Di pa, bukas pa."
Me: "So diyan sila matutulog?"
Harley: "hahahaha. Malamang."
Me: "Kung pupunta ba kami diyan, may chance ba na makausap ko sila or anything?"
Harley: "ah, wala wala."
Me: "Nabigay mo na yung gifts?"
Harley: "Ngayon palang, kanino nga ulit yung 2 na nakabalot in blue?"
Me: "Kay Brandon yan."
Me: "Di sila aalis? kasi diba kahapon sabi mo nag-Timog sila?"
Harley: "Ah, di ko pa alam, sige tawag ka ulit may gingawa pa ko."

Memorize ko talaga eh noh?

Went home, weird ng feeling super, parang masaya na unacomplished. Basta. I didn't have time to study for my exams tomorrow so naisip ko sa car nalang.

Kinabukasan, I called Kuya Harley again, mga 7am. (here I go again. haha)

Me: "Hello Kuya? Sorry sorry, ako ulit."
Harley: "Huh? bakit?"
Me: "What time sila aalis?"
Harley: "Mga 8:30 am."
Me: "Nabigay mo na?"
Harley: "Ah, oo. Binigay ko dun sa naka-braided (haha), si Chris."
Me: "Ah, talaga???? ano reaction niya???"
Harley: "Wala, kinuha lang niya."
Me: "Ah, ok. Thanks super! Kuya! Bye!"

Ang pangit talaga ng feeling! Super unaccomplished. haha. Mashado kasi ako nag-expect ng mga bagay bagay. Pero ok lang, sabi ko nga, Yan ang gusto mangyari ni God kaya accept ko nalang.

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Sunday, March 9, 2008 ' 4:04 PM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

Today is my day!

Yey! 4 hours to go!
Grabe super unexplainable yung experience ko kahapon. aah! Sana mamaya sa concert suot na nila yung binigay kong shirt. Kahit isa lang sakanila please! hahaha. Asa.

See you there guys!

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Saturday, March 8, 2008 ' 11:35 PM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

and yet, so Untouchable.

I just got back from the greatest experience in my life!
Me and Mara met up at PAL today kasi aabangan namin ang Incubus. Unfortunately, maling PAL ang napuntahin namin. haha. So we went to her house then off to Crowne Plaza! Stalk Incubus time! We were there at around quarter to 4. First thing we did was we went to the swimming pool area, then sa coffee shop and met up with Cath. We went to all the rooms 1-18, inisa isa talaga namin and we checked kung san yung room na may guards. We failed. So, we lost hope and stayed in the pool area then back to the lobby coz we thought we had zero chances. While waiting at the lobby, We were constantly looking at the windows to check if their van is there. Mara saw a van then a lot of guards were accompanying it. First one I saw, Brandon! then Mike and Jose! I didn't catch a glimpse of Kilmore and Ben. My heart was pounding and my knees were shaking. I was speechless and I forgot to shout their names or at least say 'Hi' to them.


I was panicking and I called Mike and Rei. Super weird feeling parang naiiyak na ewan. haha.

Sinundan namin yung grupo na nag-aabang din sa Incu, They were the winners of the MTV promo meet and greet. We decided to go on our own so we went to the 16th floor then there was this huge macho guy wearing black and just standing there. Then we asked,

Mara: "Are you from the Incubus staff?"

Guy: "Incubus? sino yun? hindi hindi."
Us: "Ok, thanks!"

Boo you! after he answered us we knew that he was one of the securities. Bad lying skills dude! Then we went to another floor basta magkasunod lang, don't know if 15th or 17th floor. Whatever. Then may isa nanamang macho guy na naka black.


Us: "Are you from the Incubus staff"
Me: "Ayan oh" (pointing at his Incubus all access ID)

Us: "Could you give these gifts for us? Pls!"
Guy: "Di pwede eh."

Us: "Pls! kahit 1 second lang."
Guy: "Sorry di talaga pwede."
Us: "Ok, thanks!"

Mara had super insane and movie-ish plans. Sabi niya kunwari daw she'll faint
then yung attention nung security na sakanya then Me and Cath will run papunta sa room nila. Insane much?

My plan was to sneak inside the fire exit then labas tayo sa fire exit ng floors nila. So we did then we realized that fire exit doors are open from the outside and locked from the inside. Aah! we're stuck! We took the stairs from 18th floor down to the basement. haha.

We remembered na may presscon pala sila sa Bar One at 7 pm. So, we went to the 5th floor. We were not allowed to come in since we're not on "the list" so we just waited outside for them to come.
(Mara had an insane plan again, sabi niya kunwari daw mag dress tayo as waiters then tayo mag-hatid ng food, as in sinabi pa niya sa mismong waiter ah. haha.)

Waiting waiting waiting and found out that nasa loob na pala sila kanina pa. So
we waited for them to come out nalang. I hope that that security burns in hell. Sobrang sama niya talaga basta. haha. I was getting ready. I was carrying the shirts that I made for them, stuff to be signed, and 2 gifts for Brandon. I was peeking through the hole sa blinds and first person I saw was a black dude then I saw Sib and Anne Curtis which ruined the moment. haha. Then finally I saw them! haha. Desperate. I saw them all but si Brandon lang nakunan ko.

The guard was pissed off kasi super abang mga tao sa lalabasan nila so he announced na masahado kami magulo dun na sila palabasin sa kabila. Psssh, like we're too dumb to believe that. Minutes later, lumabas rin sila..aah!

Cath took a video of them while Mara is taking the pictures and ako, wala nandun lang sa harap hinharang ng guards. Watch this.
CLICK!



I was shouting "Brandon!", "Ben!".
I was so frustrated coz I wasn't able to give the shirts that I made for them. So after that hinabol pa namin sila sa may eleveator pero di na namin naabutan. Then we went to their floors again and checked if may guards. Unfortunately meron pa, nagtatawan pa nga eh. Tsk, shitheads. Me and Mara shouted, "We love you Brandon!" habang nasa eleveator at nakabukas yung door. Hahaha, para lang andun yung thought na baka narinig niya kami at baka lumabas siya.
haha. On the way down, may nakasabay kamin guy,

Mara: "You're with the band?"
Guy: "Yes."
Us: "Could you give this for us? pls pls."
Guy: "Ah, sige."

I forgot the conversation. Basta he was so kind di katulad nung ibang shitheads na yun. We handed out our stuff that we wanted to give them. I handed out the shirts and Mara handed out her surfing pics.

The guy, his name was Harley, was very kind. He's our savior. We asked for his number para daw bukas tawagan lang namin siya and all access kami sa Incubus. Woooo!!

Pag baba namin we told the other dudes na nakita namin sila. haha. then we told nga na we met their official driver. haha. beh!

Went to Mara's house then I went home.

Mara I-emd me, She said that tinext daw siya ni Kuya Harley, he said that andun daw ang Incu sa Timog sa may Pier One. Pero tatlo lang sila and wala si Brandon. Pero ok lang! It was 1am na rin when Harley texted. I really wanted to go but labo makapunta. Basta.
I love you Mara for not going without me! or baka kasi wala si Boyd dun. wahahaha.

Super telebabad with Mara. blah blah blah. Talking about how we'll make a move to hug B tomorrow or any of them.

It's now 3:30 am. I'm not yet sleepy.
Excited for tomorrow! Please play 'Privilege' and 'Vitamin'!

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Friday, March 7, 2008 ' 12:04 AM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

Pinch me? Anyone?

Is this for real? 2 days more and I'm actually gonna see my heroes! Actually 1 day coz I'll TRY to go to Crowne Plaza tommorow or at Bar One for their Press con. Hopefully I'll find them there.

I am now making shirts for them! hopefully they'll like it. Thanks Hen for the photoshop-ing of these. Owmen, I can't believe this! Btw, I sold my VIP Row S tickets to someone, and I bought better tickets! VIP Row E! Sana matalsikan ako ng laway ni Brandon love. hahaha. Yea, I'm serious.
Yea, and Dad left for Beijing yesterday. So, more reason for me to celebrate! hahaha. I can go wherever I want! He'll be back at Monday which is good coz the concert is over by that time (which is sad also) and when I'm at the concert I won't be constantly receiving calls and telling me to go home. Ugh, hate it when that happens.

MARCH 9 IS MY DAY! SEE YOU ALL THERE!

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Saturday, March 1, 2008 ' 4:59 PM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

Delusional.

"Meeting Incubus" and "hearing them perform live" are the words that keeps my brain closed from everything. It's the only element inside my brain as of now. At dahil dun, I dreamt of them. I know you guys don't care but I'll just tell it anyways for the sake of my future browsing. haha. Para di ko makalimutan tong dream na to.

It goes like this:

Incubus was having a concert (not sure if it was here in Manila), Then I found out that they were staying at this secret place (it was a badminton court. weird huh?) to chill and relax before the concert. I hurriedly ran towards that place and found myself staring at Brandon.

ME: Heeeyy Brandon. Can I have my picture taken with you?
BRANDON: Sure.

*click*

ME: Woops, sorry it's blurry. Again?
BRANDON: *nods head*

I think the total number of pictures was 8. (As of what I remember)
Then, minutes later I saw Kilmore sitting by the bench.

ME: Kilmore! Picture?
KILMORE: *nods head*

I saw Mike and Jose talking at the other side of the court.

Then, skip skip.
Basta natandaan ko super kinukulit ko si Brandon, as in I was asking him nonstop questions, and he wasn't annoyed or pissed at all.

The day after, I think it was prom? coz some of my classmates are there. Basta formal event, we were wearing gowns and all that. I kept saying to myself that "Pls pls, sana ka-table ko si Brandon pls!" coz I had a feeling that he was coming. When I was randomly looking around, I saw Brandon, head down on the table, he was sleeping.Typical Brandon in the old days, He was wearing a black shirt, low rise pants, bonnet, and chucks. No one even cared that he was there. Sabi ko sa friends ko, "Guys! si Brandon! yung sinasabi ko sainyo" then parang sila, "Ah, yan pala siya."

I woke him up,
ME: "Hey Brandon."
BRANDON: "Wow."

Haha, I got home and I constantly looked at the pictures. As in paulit-ulit. haha.

PS: Brandon was at his Morning View times pa sa dream na to. Meaning he was still young, un-macho, morning hair. You know what I'm talking about. haha!

Owmen, Stop me from this obsession!
I Love You Boyd.

8 days to go! March 9, here I come!

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