I AM



Greetings Earthlings!

I am Beverly Kho living in North side, Manila.
My name means "Woman from the beaver meadow" which explains why I look like this.
I have once lived with Anne Frank back in the 1930's. I am allergic to powder and as a result, I have never felt non-sticky.
I have my own river named 'Emotion'. I have once felt isolated from this world and tried to fit in with the Egyptians.

If anybody has anymore questions beyond art, music, duplication, relevance, obsessions, literature,
heartbreak, disillusionment, love, death, the future, confusion, delusions, homosexuals, sleep machines,
mundanes, eco-friendly and vegetarians, please don't Google my name or ask your "friend who knows about me".
Call me at your Mom's house, I'll be there having a powder party.

Ok, enough about that. As you can see, this blog is filled with Incubus that's because
I AM a big big fan of them. I look up to them and they serve as my inspiration (Sometimes my distraction. Hi Brandon)

Besides BB and Incubus, I enjoy the sights of...
...FASHION
...ART
...MUSIC
...TRAVEL

Oh, and by the way, if your not using Mozilla Firefox, you won't be able to view my posts.

Cheers!

Lawyers


INSPIRATION
"The world is a drought when out of love
Please come back to us
You're all of the above
I'm making a choice to be out of touch
Leave me be he said, he said, he said,
Leave me here in my stark, raving, sick, sad little world!"


"We're both aligned in framed of mind but circumstance has got us good
And now you’re seeing a side of me I wished no one ever would
Yeah, if it's right to pick a fight, we’re fingers in a sugar bowl
Love isn’t perfect, even diamonds start out as coal"


"Should I apologize
If what I say burns your ears and stains your eyes?
Oh, did I crack your shell?
When it falls away, you'll see we exist as well!"


"I suggest we learn to love ourselves before it's made illegal
When will we learn? When will we change?
Just in time to see it all come down..."


"Was it something I said
Something I read and manifested that's getting you down
Don't you dare come to bed with that ambiguous look in your eye
I'd sooner sleep by an open fire and wake up fried"


"There's something about the look in your eyes
Something I noticed when the light was just right
It reminded me twice that I was alive
And it reminded me that you're so worth the fight"


"Could there be a familiar ring every time I sing about.
Cycle the tears everything in life no doubt I, I.
Reiterate till my jaw is offset,
But I'll say it again anyway,
What you give is what you get!"


"I take a look around; it´s evident the scene has changed.
And there are times when I feel improved, improved upon the past.
Then there are times when I can´t seem to understand at all
and yes it seems as though I´m goin nowhere...
really fucking fast, nowhere fast."


"I'm thinking of my soul severity
And I know everything you hate in me
Fill me up with over-pious badgerate
Throw them up; one of my favorite things"


"I hear you on the radio
You permeate my screen, its' unkind but
If I met you in a scissor fight
I'd cut off both your wings on principle alone"


"Hello!? I'm trying to focus
But my eyes deceive me.
Focus. I'm witnessing history...repeating."


"Picture the scene, where whatever you thought,
would, in the blink of an eye, manifest and become illustrated.
You'd be sure man that every line drawn reflected a life that you loved
not an existence that you hated.
So, must we demonstrate that we can't get it straight?
We've painted a picture, now we're drowning in the paint.
Let's figure out what the fuck it's about,
before the picture we painted chews us up and spits us out."


"There'd be no one to answer to
and complicate our lives,
we could be
the epitome of self sufficience."


"It isn't fair to mention, but it awes the crowd
Your fictional, plastic alibi
So take another hit, steal another line
Did you ever meet a leech who was good at goodbyes?"


"In my fantasy, I’m a Pantomime
I'll just move my hands and everyone sees what I mean
Words are too messy, and it’s way past time
To end in my mouth paint my face white and tried
To reinvent the sea, one wave a time
Speak without my voice and see the world by candlelight"


"I saw you standing in my headlights
I thought I’d run you down for the weight you left on me
Instead I punched rewind, reversed and drove away
And seeing you disappear in my rear view
brought to me the word 'reciprocity'"


"You stare at me like I'm a vitamin.
On the surface you hate,
but you know you need me.
I come dressed as any pill you deem fit.
Whatever helps you swallow the truth
all the more easily"


"My secret arsenal
is an infinite, ageless inkwell
it's a fountian of youth
and a patriot's weapon of choice."


"Enough bowing down to disillusion
Hats off and applause to rogues and evolution
The ripple effect is too good not to mention
If you're not affected, you’re not paying attention
It's too good, it's too good, not to have an effect"


"I see you in line, dragging your feet
you have my sympathy.
The day you were born, you were born free.
That is your privilege."


"Mend this careless thread, it's gone askew
(Thread on my sweater is pendulous, step back and pull it
Watch it unravel faster than a speeding bullet)"


"I'm at the end of my report again
For those who won't do apathy
You had the perfect opportunity
But plead the fifth and walked away"


"What if I was just dreaming? What if I lived in a pear?
What if I had a mustard drenched cucumber tied to my leg."


"Disconnect and let me drift until my upside down is right side in
Society must let the artist go to wander off into the nebula"


"Two weeks without my lover,
I'm in this boat alone
Floating down a river named Emotion
Will I make it back to shore or drift into the unknown."


"If this is right, I'd rather be wrong.
If this is sight, I'd rather be blind."


"Out of line, and indivisible
A crow left of the murder
Every piece contains a map of it all"


"You came, you saw, you conquered...everyone
And I'm left here guessing
Oh what went wrong"


"Kiss the sand goodbye because
the tide is coming up and in
yeah, water, water, water everywhere
and every chance to sink!"


"High fives to a better judgment
By saying less today, I will gain more
Low twos to you my fickle friend
Who brought the art of silent war"


"Some people fall in love and touch the sky
Some people fall in love and find quicksand
I hover somewhere in between
I swear…
I can’t make up my mind."


"Wake up everyone
How can you sleep at a time like this
Unless the dreamer is the real you
Listen to your voice
The one that tells you to taste past the tip of your tongue
Leap and the net will appear."


"I dream
that someday we'll be able to look back
on this together and say
It was for the best and that it
made us stronger today."


"All of my life
Where have you been
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
And if that day comes
I know we could win
I wonder if I'll ever see you again."


"He said Hey Sister.
It’s really really nice to meet ya.
I just met this 5 foot 7 guy who’s just my type.
I like the way he’s speaking his confidence is peaking.
Don’t like his baggy jeans but Imma like what’s underneath it.
And no I aint been to MIA
I heard that Cali never rains and New York heart awaits.
First let’s see the west end.
I’ll show you to my bridrens.
I’m likin' this American Boy. American Boy."


"You better think fast, think fast
'Cause you never know what's coming round the bend.
You better not blink, or breathe.
For consequence is a bigger word than you think."


"Put down your hollow tips
And kiss your lover's lips
And know that fate is what you make of it."


"'Cause' what I want
and what I need
is and will always be free."





LEAVE ME

TALK TO ME






LOOK BACK

I CAN SEE YOU

Saturday, March 8, 2008 ' 11:35 PM
I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away...

and yet, so Untouchable.

I just got back from the greatest experience in my life!
Me and Mara met up at PAL today kasi aabangan namin ang Incubus. Unfortunately, maling PAL ang napuntahin namin. haha. So we went to her house then off to Crowne Plaza! Stalk Incubus time! We were there at around quarter to 4. First thing we did was we went to the swimming pool area, then sa coffee shop and met up with Cath. We went to all the rooms 1-18, inisa isa talaga namin and we checked kung san yung room na may guards. We failed. So, we lost hope and stayed in the pool area then back to the lobby coz we thought we had zero chances. While waiting at the lobby, We were constantly looking at the windows to check if their van is there. Mara saw a van then a lot of guards were accompanying it. First one I saw, Brandon! then Mike and Jose! I didn't catch a glimpse of Kilmore and Ben. My heart was pounding and my knees were shaking. I was speechless and I forgot to shout their names or at least say 'Hi' to them.


I was panicking and I called Mike and Rei. Super weird feeling parang naiiyak na ewan. haha.

Sinundan namin yung grupo na nag-aabang din sa Incu, They were the winners of the MTV promo meet and greet. We decided to go on our own so we went to the 16th floor then there was this huge macho guy wearing black and just standing there. Then we asked,

Mara: "Are you from the Incubus staff?"

Guy: "Incubus? sino yun? hindi hindi."
Us: "Ok, thanks!"

Boo you! after he answered us we knew that he was one of the securities. Bad lying skills dude! Then we went to another floor basta magkasunod lang, don't know if 15th or 17th floor. Whatever. Then may isa nanamang macho guy na naka black.


Us: "Are you from the Incubus staff"
Me: "Ayan oh" (pointing at his Incubus all access ID)

Us: "Could you give these gifts for us? Pls!"
Guy: "Di pwede eh."

Us: "Pls! kahit 1 second lang."
Guy: "Sorry di talaga pwede."
Us: "Ok, thanks!"

Mara had super insane and movie-ish plans. Sabi niya kunwari daw she'll faint
then yung attention nung security na sakanya then Me and Cath will run papunta sa room nila. Insane much?

My plan was to sneak inside the fire exit then labas tayo sa fire exit ng floors nila. So we did then we realized that fire exit doors are open from the outside and locked from the inside. Aah! we're stuck! We took the stairs from 18th floor down to the basement. haha.

We remembered na may presscon pala sila sa Bar One at 7 pm. So, we went to the 5th floor. We were not allowed to come in since we're not on "the list" so we just waited outside for them to come.
(Mara had an insane plan again, sabi niya kunwari daw mag dress tayo as waiters then tayo mag-hatid ng food, as in sinabi pa niya sa mismong waiter ah. haha.)

Waiting waiting waiting and found out that nasa loob na pala sila kanina pa. So
we waited for them to come out nalang. I hope that that security burns in hell. Sobrang sama niya talaga basta. haha. I was getting ready. I was carrying the shirts that I made for them, stuff to be signed, and 2 gifts for Brandon. I was peeking through the hole sa blinds and first person I saw was a black dude then I saw Sib and Anne Curtis which ruined the moment. haha. Then finally I saw them! haha. Desperate. I saw them all but si Brandon lang nakunan ko.

The guard was pissed off kasi super abang mga tao sa lalabasan nila so he announced na masahado kami magulo dun na sila palabasin sa kabila. Psssh, like we're too dumb to believe that. Minutes later, lumabas rin sila..aah!

Cath took a video of them while Mara is taking the pictures and ako, wala nandun lang sa harap hinharang ng guards. Watch this.
CLICK!



I was shouting "Brandon!", "Ben!".
I was so frustrated coz I wasn't able to give the shirts that I made for them. So after that hinabol pa namin sila sa may eleveator pero di na namin naabutan. Then we went to their floors again and checked if may guards. Unfortunately meron pa, nagtatawan pa nga eh. Tsk, shitheads. Me and Mara shouted, "We love you Brandon!" habang nasa eleveator at nakabukas yung door. Hahaha, para lang andun yung thought na baka narinig niya kami at baka lumabas siya.
haha. On the way down, may nakasabay kamin guy,

Mara: "You're with the band?"
Guy: "Yes."
Us: "Could you give this for us? pls pls."
Guy: "Ah, sige."

I forgot the conversation. Basta he was so kind di katulad nung ibang shitheads na yun. We handed out our stuff that we wanted to give them. I handed out the shirts and Mara handed out her surfing pics.

The guy, his name was Harley, was very kind. He's our savior. We asked for his number para daw bukas tawagan lang namin siya and all access kami sa Incubus. Woooo!!

Pag baba namin we told the other dudes na nakita namin sila. haha. then we told nga na we met their official driver. haha. beh!

Went to Mara's house then I went home.

Mara I-emd me, She said that tinext daw siya ni Kuya Harley, he said that andun daw ang Incu sa Timog sa may Pier One. Pero tatlo lang sila and wala si Brandon. Pero ok lang! It was 1am na rin when Harley texted. I really wanted to go but labo makapunta. Basta.
I love you Mara for not going without me! or baka kasi wala si Boyd dun. wahahaha.

Super telebabad with Mara. blah blah blah. Talking about how we'll make a move to hug B tomorrow or any of them.

It's now 3:30 am. I'm not yet sleepy.
Excited for tomorrow! Please play 'Privilege' and 'Vitamin'!

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